Lyrah-SweetPillow

me and him

2012-02-12T12:46:00.001+08:00

The best memories i have ever had <3

ok .. before im going to head out on sunday afternoon , i just wanna say that i love boyfriend more than anything . thank you for accepting me back . giving me this big opportunity to love u like we used to . you never change even an inch . i know he has been waiting for me for quite sometimes . this heart of mine is really stubborn to change for the past years . i wish i could turn the time back . like we used to be so happy . but hey , we are happier now u know ! hahahaha .. yesterday we went to Changi terminal 2 . we had a frank talk . his the reason why i stayed . im sorry if most of the time i misbehave . hahaha .. sometimes i got hurt by wat aby say . but i just had to accept it . may be its time for me to change . i cannot be with other guys . it is so different . because im really used to aby . 4 years of being in a relationship . on and off . on the rock and everything . but we still turn back to each other , smiling and saying that hey , we should start a new . thats wat i love about my aby . he may not have the looks . but he has this heart that is too precious to lose it . hehh ^.^ sweet kan aku . tau uhh die . hmmm ..

had great night yesterday . we went passed geylang lorong . sial uhh the prostitute there very funny . like mini modeling contest ! hahahah .. aiyohh . wat a world yaa . ok lah . need to meet my buddy now . tata .

i love you till eternity <3

i don't know day

2012-01-26T21:50:00.001+08:00

before my battery die , i wanna quickly update my blog . sometimes i feel like expressing true feelings is very unsafe to expose in social networks . i don't know why . even when in facebook it states 'What's on your mine?' . hell yea , people got caught for saying all vulgur languages . perhaps thats what they are thinking . so in my opinion , by all means ..... POST them . hahah . i don't know lah . actually . up to individuals . im so exhausted :( go home , homework . fcuk man . give some space . hahaha . i must say that i hadnt been studying enough . and i don't know why im busy updating blog here . hahaha . it is so cold outside here . i can hear mom's laughter from outside my house corridor . haha . finally , i get to talk to afiqah in personal . haishh . i did my job . i've apologies for all my wrong-doings which i don't know what . gtg . im so sleepy . fcuking turn off -.-

Manhattan Fish Market

2012-01-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

can't wait to be served ! huhuuu !

2 serving . Baby and Me <3

Sissy Love and her Mediteraen fish

BERRRG ! we had our day out together last Saturday for dinner . i treat both my lovelies to manhattan and ate the food of our choice . it was such a great day with them . had laughter and irritating moments too . hahah . sissy is brother uhh ? oh tak eh ? haha . look at her . so short !! like butch only -.-' hahah . boyfriend prangai a bit but dont wanna show coz sissy is with us . haha . tau takot . i love the way the two of you get along . so that night we went to somerset to visit forever 21 . found nothing interesting there . so fly to bugis and bought my afternoon dress . hehh . sent boyfie home and get myself ready for bed :)

barriers to success .

2012-01-20T11:10:00.001+08:00

everyday . every single breath of my life , i have always been thinking about papi . papi don't seem to care about me . very sad that everyone's focus is on kakak . im not jealous though . i never say kakak is bad too . afterall , she's my sister . but how come im always the one that has to understand the situation whereas people around me just fcuk the hell up and create more trouble . how come i can endure . but how come people around me just couldnt bother and gave up ? if im the only soul in the house that can be resilient , why others can't ? why others stood and kept on complaining and doing nothing on the current situation ? sometimes i don't know wat my parents want . what are my sisters's desire . i can't do this alone . if you're asking for happiness and prosperity , then get ur ass up and work it out . if you yourself don't bother , then who else ? i feel like im carrying this alone . carrying all this burden . where do u think i get the money from ? i worked day and night . and this is the price that they are paying me . i do feel regret that a lot of things that i couldn't catch up because of time constraint . but i never put the blame on anyone .

god can help you ease the pain . but you have to work it out yourself and don't wait for things to happen . there are no remedy to poverty unless you work hard for your own stomach , for your own sake . trust me .

LizAziz

2012-01-08T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hi sayang ! i don't know whether u've board your flight or not . i really miss you . come back faster please :( miss you to the max ! haishh :'( bby , you're the best that i've ever had . the one that always hold me . the one that always irritate me . you can take me at my worst . at my masai and segalanye lah . haha .. was glad that we are back like last time . you're something different in there . please don't be like other guys . nothing has change in me . trust me . kalo nk tau , gurau lah dengan saye yeeeee ! ahahah . meowwww ! kan dah darah pat telinge you ! hahah . remember at east coast ? hahah ! im glad you came . right here by my side . bby always tries to make it happen . his effort and time are my precious gifts . 3 years with him is such a hard core . always rocky . but hey ! there's always lesson to be learnt rigggghhht ! haha .. the best i ever had lah b . here without you really .... Saddens me a lot oii ! hahaha . balek wall post ! hehh ^.^ nk sleep . bsk school :)

NightNight ! Muarksz Forehead ! Muarksz Cheeks ! xOxO !

Best Educator

2012-01-07T18:25:00.001+08:00

it's good to thank your teacher . show your educator that you appreciate them . i do . i do appreciate them . teachers are the most important person in our life . not another second that you can afford to disrespect them . the reason why they scold you , is because they want you to learn and succeed . Not that im a teacher's pet . but sometimes it's good that you listen to them . most probably , they've been through the hurdles before . teachers are the only creature that are willing to share knowledge . they are not selfish . there are no situation whereby , you'll have a fierce competition with you teachers . well , that's good . unlike friends . the friends around you are your competitors . everyone is fighting for a place to stay . saddening right . this is life .. but strive on ! don't give up . i congratulate all my friends that had succeed :) i may not be the best student in Bartley . But i hope to be the best educator in my family , just like how my teachers had guided me through this years . That's why , Teachers Day is important ^.^

nyonya in december

2012-01-06T19:54:00.002+08:00

these are a few of my shots . i don't want to upload all . because this is enough already . Thanks to my Best Buddy , Mona , for making it happen :) I really had great times taking the shoots with her .Spending our december holiday together :) End of this year , we'll do something different ok ! hahah . Have a good New Year Resolution Everyone ! OXOX ! muarksz !

Early Year 2012

2012-01-05T21:55:00.001+08:00

Ok ! i've packed my bag for tomorrow . so excited to go school tomorrow . hadn't have much plans for this month . will be busy this week with CCA Open House . this coming saturday . Bby just had his flight to Bali this afternoon . Was very reluctant that i couldn't send him to the airport because of school . hmmm .. hope that he would have a safe journey . will have my proper wrap up next week .

Dear Hero

Thanks for sending me to school this morning because i woke up late . haha ! that's gonna be my last time seeing you this week . Be glad and gracious that we're able to meet because I just want you to know that I might not get to meet you as often when I'm having my strenuous timetable this coming week 4 of this month . Just be patient with me . Things gonna change a lot this year .

Love , Piggy -..-

monologue

2012-01-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

2nd day of school . very sleepy . haha ! go home and then sleep . the weather .. oh my ! nothing much in school today and yesterday . same food, same teacher, same procedure . i cant believe that im already a sec 5 senior . the oldest in school . haha ! im old uhh ? going to be 17 years old and im still stuck in this school . i felt so old . so terribly old . horrible ! met old friends . hugged and waved . all moved on well . haha . im just gonna slack . haish ~ hadn't really enjoyed holidays uh . except certain days where i go ice skating , birthday pits and photoshoots . and all two months , thats all i do -.-' boring right ? didn't even get to go swimming or USS . haish ~ hmmm . so yea . i've been waiting for his text for a good hour . may be his sleeping lah . ok lah . watever lah .

ehk , he texted me liaw ! haha . tayar pancet . adoii ! haha .. relax uhh . chill . i didnt know that i can do a lot of things in a bus ride otw to home . for example , i can read Reader Digest articles and take a catnap . awesome right ? but most of the time , i'll be sleeping uh . haha !

this afternoon , im gonna take a few hours to reflect on what i've done last year that i could improve on . i meant , my methods of studying . i think i really need to improve on that . that's my weaknesses . or the things that i can cut off . the things that i can put priority on . haha ~ 1 year is really short . i hope that friends around me can also give me emotionally and spiritual supports :)

ok tata !

311211 Countdown

2011-12-31T18:03:00.002+08:00

Afternoon friends :) Im super full now . i ate breaded fish fingers and a few wedges . i slept for 3 hours while waiting for bby nk fetch kakak sedare die from airport . haven;t bath yet . just received a text . bby ask me to get ready . JAP LAH! nk update blog dulu ! haha . oiiioiio ! my hair colour quite funny sia . i dyed red . Loreal red . then it turns out to be perfectly red after a month , it become bronze and now i became brown ! hahahahah ! my hair can change colour in 3 different season ! awesome bitch ! hahah . hmmm . today countdown right ? twin kate nk meet i . tanak uhh . die nk minom and mabok old . oh , that's not my cup of tea . Tiada arak mengalir die darahku . Mintak maaf byk2 . aku tak tau uhh ape nk jadi dgn die . makin rabak . kate nk ubah . mungkin zaman mude . sebb tuu die rase mcm nk buat bende nie smue . hmmm ~ it's not that i wanna look down on her . but sampai bile seii die nk mcm nie . haishh . twin twin ~ it has been abt 2 months i last seen u after the kendarat thing . after that i never get to meet u . i miss you effing much twin . i seriously miss the old us . aku slalu ingat zaman kentalan kite . hahaha ! funny :) but cute uhh . haha .hmmm . sorry twin , i've disappoint u a lot . twin ajak go club at Zirca . and i didnt go . twin ajak go Azzura pon i tak pegi . first of all , aku rela pakai duit tuu untk beli barang makan kasi kenyang perot mak aku . lagi pahale . mak aku mcm mak twin . tapi tak terlalu open-minded . mom always make studies as my priority . 2012 resolution is just to strive harder . i hope my friendships in school would be better . no ignorance please . u guys can put the blame on me . its ok lah . aku kan jahat . lagi2 korang dpt tau aku go club nie smue . sorry uhh kalo aku tak boleh fit in with u guys . im not that bad . but may be in ur eyes that im a spoilt- brat right ? let it be lah ok . haishh .

coutdown selalu boring lah . slalu tgk fireworks lepas tuu alek . hahah . next year , i wanna book an hotel room that can view the scenery . then bring in food and happy with family and cousins . kan best . pastuu kite tgk orang ramai tak ade pat bawah kite (if we are at the top floor lah kan) hahah! i think in that way , we can strengthened our family bond . we used to play Bingo together and all too . so yea . i think next year we better have that as our new year gathering !

BF24: you know why i stick with you ? because i know we can make it through . his the person that can accept me with my flaws . there is something in him that really brightens up my day . i don't want us to fight anymore . i just wanna stick to one . i can't wait to meet him ! haha . oioi , walaupon kau tak handsome , tetap aku sayang kau oi ! hahah . hahah ^.^

2011-12-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hi i just went back from Ion . I bought bby Uniqlo shirt for tmr ! yahooo ^.^ happy banget :) this picture above was the last time i saw my mentors . miss them already ! haha .. they always listen to my problem . kak nurul has helped me to move on with life even when we fail and fall . people always like to disappoint us and make the spirit low . we shouldn't care about it . papi disappoint me a lot . mom&sis too . haishh . its ok . im strong . i know it . when school reopen , im going to face with them again :( i feel like curling like a child nw . mentor always helped me in one way or another . i just wanna be happy on my countdown day with my loved one's . will be meeting shafina and atikah too <3 my BBG :) haha .. im just gonna chill at marina and watch the fireworks under the moonlight . i just wish a simple countdown to start my resolution on 2012 . and then back to normal when school starts . nothing much about me . be happy for me please . and bless for my happiness . don't always curse people . because that's bad . really really bad . haha :) catch u guys up tmr okek ! bye bye love

OXOX !

2011-12-29T16:27:00.002+08:00

Ombak Rindu

2011-12-29T14:06:00.001+08:00

I cried through out my time when watching this movie . well , i guess that's how a wife should accept the fact that life wasn't that simple . And Men should always be thankful that Allah had make him meet with a women that are willing to go through all the obstacles in life . I've learnt a lot while watching this movie . Believe in your faith and keep praying for the best . Be faithful to your partners ~ Don't force them to love you because that will never happen .

Though I thought this movie was quite cliche . No doubt , it has successfully made me cry :)

Forever 24

2011-12-26T01:02:00.001+08:00

bby baru antar i balek dari nasir's birthday pit . sorry to trouble u again b . 2 hours of spending time with you . i know it's not enough . but hey ! at least something better than nothing wat ! hahah .. okok . orang tuu jealous seii . orang nie pon jealous jugak :( tanak ckp nape uhh kan . haha . btw , i dah tak contact ngan mane2 lelaki ok . haha .. i only have my bby#24 ! ok . saye in setia mode now . hp pp8 dah habes ! huhuuu ! it's time lizah . time to change number ! hahaha .. next year resolution ehkk .. hmm ... I nk last long ngan bby i . lepas tuu i nk concentrate belajar since bby i pat NS . where got time nk mengatal ? hahah .. i nk sangat ikot bby go P.O.P :) kalo tuhan izin kan lah . haha . kalo tak , takpe . i rindu papa jugak . muke die same ngan u b . ehkk ape aku ckp nie !?? sudah terang bapak die . haha ! i rindu papi i jugak . die tak angkat i punye call :( haishhh .. Rindu Mummy you . hahah .. b , i mintak maaf byk2 sebb tak pernah makan masakkan mummy u ever since i naek rumah ubi . imagine uhh . 3years plus .... never taste mummy's cooking . sorry sorry ! i wish to spend more time with u ayang ! haha .. lame tak otp ngan u :( btw , tinggal pon tak jauh nahh . so rajin2 lah dtg sini . haha . lepas tuu lame2 tinggal sini nye turn . haha ~

2011-12-20T22:13:00.001+08:00

ME : I am very exhausted today . Mom said that i am lack of rest . She could see my red eyes and force me to eat panadol so that i can get myself ready for tomorrow . I am going to do watersports tomorrow withh all My First Break Award alumni (me) and new juniors . I am so glad that we had taken this opportunity to bond together and foster strong friendships together . My body's aching now . I've been eating a lot for this 2 months and proudly gained 8kg . hahaha ! I don't care . fat then fat lorr ~

Family : yaa . hadn't been supportive enough . sometimes i wonder what does my sister's thinking . dorang ingat mak aku makin mude kape ? hmm .. Old but no brain . sedap beranak .. tapi menyusahkan orang . sorry uhh . but i just can't help it . It's not fair when I am the last child and i have to understand my situation but my sisters are not doing their duties well . Very irresponsible bunch of folks . I am just going to mind my own business and continue to study . I will keep my mouth shut because I don't want this things to happen to me . Jinx ! I have my own responsibility . and my responsible is to take care of both my parents . I love them till eternity :)

Lizah&Aziz : Baby ! im glad we are back on track . But basic things should always set to boundaries . When i just realised that I can't live without you . Although I am in a relationship with someone else , we still meet up and still update each other . I am going to change my number soon and may be deactivate facebook . or may be we just share accounts . Im so lucky that I have my super hero to send my sec 5NA application form through the rain man ! hahaha .. haishh . kite kan waterproof :) baby took me away the day before my results collection and had supper . 12.30am outside my doorstep aye ^.^ he sent me safely at 2.45am to home in front of my doorstep also . hahaha .. sweet ehk kau ! haha . on tuesday when i got back from mendaki camp , bby ride me to tekka with his cousins ! hahaha . thosai die ... fuuuuuhhh ! powderfull lah sia ! hahaha . kenyang aku ... actually aku dah makan lunch . tapi aku makan lagi . pegi mampos lah . hahaha . gemok pon aku pe . sape nk heran pasl aku -.-' ahahah .

dedicated to my pantat gemuk :)

at Nurul's crib

2011-12-17T22:27:00.001+08:00

hi ! i've reached yishun like 2 hrs ago . heheh ^.^ i came from ite college east this afternoon to attend a voluntary event . was not so tired and had glorious moment . proceeded to my auntie's house . miss this kind of family gathering :) all aunties are here . i just finish makan . ouhh my , i can hear mommy's voice from 2nd floor ! all of them are busy cooking . all getting prepared for Ashley's baby shower tomorrow . fcuk ! on my working day :( but at least im here tonight :) called baby . i fcuking miss him . supposed to meet him today . oii ! not that im lazy . but rainning right . nnt u ride bike ..... something happen then u know . supposed to watch ghost protocol tonight . but i just headed to yishun straight instead . bby now at geylang with his cousin to makan . nie budak ehkk .. tsk ~ makan malam je . mcm mane tak boncet . and his boncet is not the small one u know ! so big BIG BIG ! shame shame ! haha .. next month , another 3 weeks time , i will be in the ring . trainning hard . ok , next entry , will be talking about my 2012 resolution :) Bby , i miss you so much , ride safely lah <3 i have so many things to tell you when we meet up . and sure thing , im lucky to be in love with my own exboyfriend&bestfriend <3

Forever24 !

Lizah in the kitchen

2011-12-16T11:39:00.001+08:00

hi . i had great days . great moment , working . haha . yesterday i text papi . he always avoid me when i talk about going shopping . i don't know . if this year i did well , will he bring me to Bali ? i wanna go badly . papi so mean sia . mommy giveme warning today . she say , next year no relax relax uhh ! sunday i must sit inside the kitchen . hahah . ok best . this is the time i've been waiting for ! hahaha .. at last . i rule my kitchen :) mampos tunggang terbalek dapor dibuatnye . hahahahah ! i nk belajar masak ! yeah yeah !! rumah ade oven best ! so i can bake cakes . i love cup cakes . those simple one . haha . haven been baking for months . ok . so i nk siapkan buku recipe i ! hahahaha ..

felonious intent.

2011-12-13T23:38:00.001+08:00

i become more fatter , more happier day by day . Mohana ask me wats my relationship status . so i answered her ; 'i have no time uhh . my time occupied for working hours.' then awkward silence . hahah ! so lazy . really lazy . so today i had my shots shots shots ! hahah . apparently , i don't like the make-up . because i think i don't look nice in thick make-ups . look like bapok siak ! haha . ate lunch at causeway point with mohana and gobble a McSpicy . head straight to studio . it was a long hours . about 5hours ? sleepy ! mate steam steam siol ngan foundation smue . after shots head to tampines to send my laptop . had dinner at teh tarik . alhamdullilah ! my laptop nothing wrong . just need to brush up somethings only . i was so worried when my BABY got sick and i've to send him quickly to the hospital . luckily , he was not admitted ! hahah . if not i won't be updating blog now ! :) i love my BABY a lot . ok . and so i jalan jalan at tampines mall . was super crowded with thongs of people . i found my Garrett Popcorn there and bought it at large size ;) my tayang tayang bucuk bucuk ! i finally can eat you tonight . Mona and i laughed heartedly ! hahah .. for some lame jokes , i must say . haha !

suddenly i missed him . when i send my BABY to the abang , i think something is missing . AZIZ AZIZAN BIN RUSLAN is missing . i still remember last time he tried his very best to get my new laptop . i love him so much . he accompany me back and fro to survey . i trusted him so much that i gave him my atm pin number so that he could help me with the laptop transactions . now i don't know where he go . may be now his sad or hurt ? i don't know . the last time he text me was 'ouhh' haha . yaa . i don't know wats happening to us . not in good conditions . i also don't wanna talk much lah kan . or may be he had enough of me . had tolerated my atrociousness . wat to do ? wat to do ?! now i panic already ! haish . no sign of him because i deleted him in facebook . delete plus block in facebook . i don't even know wats my motive for doing that to him . im being too self-centered . i always think of myself . unlike him . he always thought of me . how to make things happen though it never did . his my first love . the guy that i salute always . he always want to build in this intimate friendship between us . well , i think it's going on successfully .

Nothing last forever baby

2011-12-11T11:34:00.001+08:00

buckle up

2011-12-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

KENJI ! hehh ^.^ thank you ezaq ! sudah teman kan i pegi chinatown and buy a lot of stuff today :) hahah . i love this umbrella :) haha .. i think it looked great on me . just that camera quality a bit down . haah . samsung mahh :) hahah . ok lah at least something better than nothing mahh . haha . hmmm . meet him at bedok and teman him go snip snip his hair and then proceed to toa payoh and meet shafina to eat dinner with her :) hugged her to tightly ! haha . i love her a lot !! after that me and ezaq proceed to chinatown and shopping for something . hmmm. walked from chinatown market all the way to fullerton hotel kiosk and have a drink @ starbucks <3 i love him for pampering me a lot of treats . headed home as early because am going to continue working tmr . hmm . withdrawn $400 for mom tonight . a share of my salary <3 haha . mom confirm happy ! ok good life . good night !

movie marathon !

2011-12-09T14:36:00.001+08:00

MUST WATCH !

Mommy , saiful and I

2011-12-09T03:57:00.002+08:00

Mommy i gerek . hahaha :) i webcam-ing with saiful . we are talking about his ex-girlfriend ^.^ she is so sweet . hahah . i wish i can be like his ex-wifey . so caring and motherly care . you know , sometimes when you love that someone , u're already get used to their style and the way they treated you . and when u found a replacement for them , unfortunately , you'll feel something different . now i know why some people cannot move on so quickly . if u moved on so quickly after your long term relationship , i think .. there is something wrong , somewhere . i have been with saiful for 2 years ? haha . we went to china together and he knows my flaws well <3 haha . so funny right . he is such a caring boyfriend . he bought his ex-girlfriend top at zara . well , at least he remember her . haha :) im not ashamed to let mom see who im chatting with . for me , there's nothing to hide . the night mom was there beside me watching us webcam . she laughed too . saiful gile ! haha . he told mom wat i did at china . WTH ! hhahaha .. the other side of ur daughter , mom <3

helpless in a hopeless place

2011-12-06T23:53:00.008+08:00

hi . i just reached home . nyanyi nyanyi je aku narie . all the way i was thinking of kakak's court hearing . tak dapat attend :( im working today . i couldn't take off . oii ! not my fault uhh . mom never tell me in advance :'( nk nangis please . kakak kluar January 19 . one month away from my results day . bear-bear ? is that you ? is that really really u up there ?! aww <3 i miss you too much bby . but .. yaa . wat to do . i don't know who's fault . my fault is it that you left me insecure ? it hurts a lot . i don't know wat i should do now . i don't even know what i should say about us . haha . im always waiting for your call , your text . i've so many things to tell you . just so sad that it's not responding . im not angry . im just disappointed . i hide my tears to celebrate you enjoying the time of your life . im always hoping . everyday . every single day of my life ; that some day , some how .. you would change . to someone i used to know . muhammad irwan that i used to hug , used to kiss . used to hold . hold on tight ...... im holding . holding helplessly .

Hug&Kisses ,

Lyrah Oink-Oink -..-

specially dedicated to my sweet lover .

I love you forever

I love you too much

2011-12-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

Chakk ! hahah . hamizan , hamizan ! the most ugliest guy in bartley legendary . trust me . haha . Ade hati nk belanje orang USS -.-' haha . 6A's ehk ? impossible shit . takot nye nk tgg results this coming 19th dec . alamak . yaa allah ! takot , takot ! kalo aku fail mcm mane ? mampos aku kene takek :'/ kalo aku fail , aku tak boleh capai impian aku . sedih sia .

December Target

1) Photo-shoot
2) USS
3) Shopping
4) Countdown
5) Picnic with anyone

lepas tuu aku boleh bungkus ! hahaha . bankrupt aku ~ i never use my parents money horr . i worked hard . biar genggam barah ! i run for my dreams . dont rely on anybody . come on Lizah . u can . trust urself ok . nobody will help u except urself . even the guy that loved u cannot help u . everyone has their own dreams . everyone would run for it . u too Lizah . don't dream . instead u should be a dream chaser ! mom say , jgn pedulikan orang yang benci kite . sebb doranglah yang akan musnahkan hidup kite yang selame kite bina . fuhh . powdersome !

botak

2011-12-05T17:22:00.001+08:00

introducing you , my boyfriend :) hahah . cute ehk die.. haha / frankly , i like guys that cut their hair botak . macho rabak ! i want my boyfriend to join boxing . nevermind . i can take care of him . hahahahahha ! im gonna be there for every of his tournament . come on baby ! u can do it ! smack him down :) yeah yeah ! dancing around the bed . rolling down the side bed ^.^ hahaha .. haishh . im gonna lose my mind when u stripe naked . hahaha .. ooiii ! aku blom mandi . narie off . makan tdo . tgk tv je kerje aku . normal teenager's life . tmr work again . awesome bitch ! ^.^

today mom ckp aku cerewet ! tsk ~ she say i always wanna smell good . from my undergarment to my clothes till my bed sheets and pillow sheets too . btw , aku takde bantal busuk ok . aku cume ade bantal wangi jeeee ! mom always wash for me . if my pillow's smell doesn't comfort my nose , i can't sleep at night . this few days my niece and nephew sleep over my house . i hugged my mickey mouse this morning lepas tuu hidung bau ALIUR BASIH ! mau sott je aku -.-'' tros lempar tepi . mom ketawe . tsk ~ bau melekat sia pat hidung . baek2 aku nk tdo sampai petang , tros terbangun . FRESH ! kacau je . so i went to sent my pillows to the laundry basket . that same goes to a guy . he MUST smell GOOD . i fall in love more to his perfume than to him itself . lol sia .but seriously . u must smell good . its a good hygiene practice .

Pertaining You

2011-12-05T09:40:00.005+08:00

People do lie and cheat and stab you in the back. There will be people who use you and say they love you even though they fucking don't. But you can't let that stop you from living.

attendance

2011-12-05T02:41:00.002+08:00

arrrrggghh ! im fucking sleepy now lahh . tsk ~ i slept already . just that something wakes me up . so i ended up blogging here . never mind . but there's something IMPORTANT that i wanna say .

i don't like it when i go out with a guy , he ended up attending to his phone than being present for me in reality . sometimes , i feel like i wanna walk off ur face u know . well , lucas taught me that . i rarely go out with guy on a daily basis or for my free time either . so i hope u would appreciate the most time u have with me . if u can't do that .. then im sorry . just leave lah ok . seems like wats on ur phone is much more important than me , which is just in front of u . ouhh wait . beside u , i mean . really . guy who does that really pissed me off . syg , if u love her , go ahead and tell her u want her back ok :) u're still newly heart broken . go fix it urself . don't end up ur calls saying 'love you' or fishy things to me . i want to fall for u . in fact , the first time i saw u , i know it's you . but now that i can see everything , really ... im too uncertain . im too conscious .

this message can only relate when it's applicable for you . if you can't see the general idea , then you shall not notify about this notice .

same shit different day

2011-12-05T00:09:00.002+08:00

i miss hearing someone say this . haha ! dulu2 mase aku ngan wan kan . haha :) there's this stranger shouted that status above so loud to his friend and teased him . haha . then wan terase uhh . haha . behh aku dah ketawe2 pat tepi corner mase die tgh isap rokok pat depan ion . haha . haishh ~ rindu wan . entah ehkk mane die pegi . ape die tgh buat skarang uhh ? agaknye skarang die dah tdo kot . mesti last message die si pompan nadia keleng tuu ehk . haha . bby , u cannot find someone better than me is it pundek ? pompan clubbers jugak kau cari . bahan grind ehk bby ? tsk ~ takpe lah . its ok . may be die boleh layankan kau . sorry bby . i pentingkan pelajaran i daripade u . i neglected him when im doing my N Levels . i didnt meet him for almost 3 months . aku tunggu kau pulang dari brunei . lepas tuu dpt jumpe bulan puase je . padahal die tinggal bedok je sia . mataeh mane tak sayangkan mataeh die . kau bilang aku ? orang gile je . hilangkan diri ? u also wat . pentingkan kawan2 kau yang pat club tuu . ape tuu ? Zouk ehk ? haha . yelah . NS spoil u lah bby . dulu mase kau gemok mcm babi , tetap aku accept kau . i don't need a cute or hensem boyfriend . i just need a guy that can take care of me and accept my character . just so unfortunate that u can't do me a small favour . very sad and hurt . but i never did cry for you bby . u're somebody to me no more . once ex , means ex . not more than that . if i ever got close to u , most probably we can get back together . but hey . it's ur slimmest chance .

today at work ; deployment sheet instructed me to station at men zone . i was browsing through t-shirts . the shirts are super cool . i wanted to buy . but i dont know who i wanna buy it for . nk belikan untk wan , die bukan mataeh aku lagi . haha . craziie right ? the shirts there are not cheap ok . i like the designs . im not so generous to buy for a guy stuffs ok . im just in a mood . thats all . no lah i think because i always see mommy buy for baba baju kan . so it's like normal for us , women , to buy for men's clothing . after all it's our job to look after the men's well-being right . but too bad . i no hab boyfriend . so i decided to browse through ayah's sweatshirt for his brithday this coming 24 dec :) that would cost me about $73 only ^.^

2011-12-03T22:33:00.004+08:00

I miss lepak-ing at hougang mall with adilah and afiqah . i dont know where they go . and may be i don't bother . but seriously . i miss them . our old times . just so bad that we couldnt get along . but nevermind . its ok uhh . anyway ..... today dzack text-ed me ! hahah . gile sia . die kate kite dah 3 months ?!!!???!!!???? BILE MASE ?! hahah . im so surprised . haha . layankan je uhh kan . serious mehh ? tak tau pulak yang aku dah kene 'owned' by someone. i myself confused . hahaha . kelakar gile . kompused kakak oii .tak tau nk ckp ape . 3 months ehk .. then 3 months wat i've done for him ? hahah . i don't know , i don't know !! surrender . wa chen de pu chi tau lerr !

Work :

today big bigger boss pay a visit to RI . Mr Clive . that botak UK guy . very friendly . haha . so i talked to ain .. somehow we talked about make-up and facial stuff . normal lah . girls mahh . she asked me whether i wore make-up to work or not . hahah . then i was like -..-'' NO ! haha . i wear facial cream that Mom bought for me . ain thought i wear brown-zer . i dont know what the hell was that . she said some powder to make ur face tanner or wat . i didnt know it exist until she told me . hahaha . Lizah Lizah .. i go work wear cream , blusher and lip gloss only . fast game punye . aku takde nk hege2 kangkong dlm toilet . haha . ain told me i looked like Jacoob from Twilight skin colour , ade2 je orang gile nie . haha . and today i successfully sold a total of $2,985.60 of shoes in 2hours . im good at persuading :) big buyers big buyers ! i think because of my blusher ! hahaha . Lizah force herself to smile although she's very tired and not enough sleep . i liaised with jacky . she's cool man ! haha . she told me all the high end branded stuff . cool ^.^ okok .. went home early today A shift oii !

Weekly Working schedule :

0412 : F

0512 : off

0612 : F

0712 : A

0812 : B

0912 : off

1012 : B

Legend : 04/12
dd/mm
F : 10.15am -10.15pm
A : 10.15am-7.15pm
B : 1.15pm-10.15pm

sorry faiz . i cannot meet u :'/ tsk .. i always delay our visit to rahimmabi mosque . ade event kan ? tsk . everything falls on the wrong timing . i think faiz nie under pewanit uhh . how come die tercampak dkt rahimmabi sia ?! haha . funny uhh . or may be .. wat a small world :) btw , this photos looks wrong right ? yaa .. think wat u wanna think lah ok . his my bestfriend ! hahahahhoo ! that time 2 days straight we go job hunting like dog sia . kesian faiz . takde rezeki . i got plenty of callbacks . but didn't bother coz shafina already recommended me job :) faiz ok wat . u become the watever game instructor . big bucks siol ! yeah ! faiz boleh blanje aku murtabak pat victory woii ^.^ haha . ehkk jap . supposed to eat fish and co with me right !?! never mind . i also understand u're working . being a free lancer is not easy oii . schedule like shit ! tapi faiz solat tak tinggal ^.^ bagusss ! i respect him a lot :)

Azali Hussein

2011-12-03T00:39:00.003+08:00

Hi papi . hmmm .. thank you for being the best dad in the world . nobody can replace you , dad . you're my best . i miss you . im so sorry to neglect you . i love you though . i always think of you every night . i love you so much <3 dad , teach me how to love someone can ? seems like i can't learn how to love any other man except for you . dad , i always thought wat would happen to u when u grow old . can i take care of u like how u did for me ? u tried to give me watever u can . knowledge , money ! haha .. u gave me love , care , concern .. no man can do much better than u . so hard to find a guy with the same character like you . yes true , everyone make mistakes . so do i . but u're different . u made mistakes and then correct it and tried to improve it . i just love you . that makes u perfect .

my perfect dad :)

hi bestfriend&exboyfriend . i didnt mean to give you false hope . i really didnt know that i would disappoint you . i really hadnt get my schedule yet . so wat u want me to do ? hmm .. false hope as in wat ? i also dont get you . never mind uhh bf . u can leave me . its ok . u're always making things difficult for me . i texted u . but reply mcm ..... tak pe uhh kan . tanak ckp , nnt orang ingat aku keyboard warrior pulak . i dont know wat u're thinking down there . i myself can't get u since the day we broke up . i used to really love you so much . love you like i never did . our relationship is really strong that we can't miss a single sec to not meet each other . at least a call would satisfy u . we shared everything together . we even had close relationship with each another's mother . ur mom know's me well . my mom know's u well . that first guy to sleepover my house of DIFFERENT SLEEPING POSITION . i witnessed u graduate from secondary school . how u did well for takraw . how u ran for ur class like a chicken . haha . the most number of kisses u gave me . u used to me my man . now time had changed . may be part of it was my fault . i gave in too much . or may be .. u did more . i don't know . we can't make it one lah bf . cannot . though we are together for more than 3 years , i guess .. this would be then end of it . i like keeping myself quite . i like to take things on my own . all i ever wanted is .. jangan cari kemarahan orang boleh ? please uhh . Lizah tired . really tired . and u know when im tired , perangai burok uhh kan . or may be .... just dont text/call me anymore . thanks . we should just stop seeing each other before things get more complicated , before the feelings come and go beyond friends i think there should always be a boundary for us . friends should always stay as friends . not more or less than that . i hope u get me . ex is ex . friends is friends .

Apek Durian

2011-12-02T23:43:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Muslih ! oii apek durian ! u're growing old and rusty already . haha . So last night , as a celebration , we went out to kallang cineleisure and ice skate ^.^ huhuuu ! coooold ! alalah christmas season uhh kan . haha . yaa . ehk muslih not bad uhh . he skate quite well :) hmm .. after that we proceed to bugis coz he wanted to go and look for a stroller for his niece i think . hahah . he was rather disappointed . im really sorry about it . after the disappointment , muslih and i headed the pool place . he taught me how to pool ^.^ ok . may be now ipin should hang out with me more with his girlfriend and play pool together ! hahaha . i dont know lehh .. i think when i hold the stick and tried to aim , i feel more like playing archery than pool -..-' muslih retarded ask me to sing because i lost . haishhh . smack ur head left right up down horr . hmmm . ted joined us late about 8plus i think . his good . the two of them was rather keeping a lot of patince in them . hahaha ! soorrry lahh horr . but they gave courage to try on . STRIVE ON !hahaha . lol . great day , great night . mus sent me home . both was super tired so i present him an unwrapped and tagged labelled . sorry sorry ! nampak sahh dari River Island ;) hahah .. ok lights off AFTER i took my SHOWER .

breakfast is the most important meal

2011-12-01T10:28:00.001+08:00

Morning ! i woke up at 8am today :) i slept at 3.15am . i was busy calculating my work hours . haha . hmm . i told mom that my target to wake up was 9am . why did she wake up so early and disturb my sleep !!!! haha . since i open my eyes already , i cannot return to sleep :) so i brush my teeth , hooked my bra and vrrrrooooom ! go breakfast with mom ^.^ the first thing when i woke up , i shout out loud that im hungraaaay ! haha .. very hungry . so both mother and daughter head to the market and discuss about many things . from financials to future planning . very informal . hello , it's just the 2 of us . hmm . this is my favourite breakfast meal ^.^ ta huay and mix chin chau&soya bean . soya bean is really nutritious you know . Soybeans contain all three of the macro-nutrients required for good nutrition: complete protein, carbohydrate and fat, as well as vitamins and minerals, including calcium, folic acid and iron :) calcium helps to build strong bones and teeth whereas iron is useful In menstruating women, genitourinary blood loss often accounts for increased iron requirements. Oral contraceptives tend to decrease menstrual blood loss, whereas intrauterine devices tend to increase menstrual bleeding. Other causes of genitourinary bleeding and respiratory tract bleeding also increase iron requirements.

research from my previous F&N coursework ^.^

haishh . today im sad . im forever sad . i don't know what's wrong with him . may be he forgot how he used to hold my hands . how he used to grab my hands . or may be his not the one for me . who cares ? he don't . then why should i ? handsome sangat ke Lizah ? tsk ~ hahaha ! oioi ! aku happy solo lah sia :) remember what syed used to remind you ok Lizah :) long or short term relationship also , i don't wanna commit . that's it ! no way .. NEVER will coz i don't give in so easily .

dinner with boss-es !

2011-12-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

my manager ! Maye :) my best superb manager ! hahaah .. she's a threat of my weight ! she make sure that im depressed so that i can lose weight ! hahahahahah ~ really really . i rather not eat during break time . tonight we have christmas gathering . though christmas is about 25 days away , we celebrate in advanced ! in case we can't make it because of the festive season . everyone will be busy by then . My big boss ; issabelle . still talk about the story when the first time she saw me and asked me to assist a chinese indonesian customer . i spoke in malay language and she got surprised ! hahahah ! she didnt know till then that im a malay base culture . she thought that im a chinese girl with tanned skin ! hahahah . wahh liaww . if only i study chinese in the beginning ~ in primary school . bodoh sia . why i study malay !???!!!! tsk . wasted !

character

2011-11-30T10:17:00.010+08:00

Can you speak with your mouth close ?
Yes .

2011-11-30T00:08:00.006+08:00

Tips to impress a girl : Sit with her at lunch. Give her your sweat shirt. Spend time with her. Make her feel good. Put your arm around her. Kiss her. Make her laugh. And don't go out with her unless you truly like her and not using her.

tingtong

2011-11-28T23:47:00.006+08:00

WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMON , TAKE IT . SQUEEZE THE JUICY OUT OF IT ! OH COME ON ! MAKE IT INTO LEMONADE :)

SWEEEEEEEET & SOUR<3

my face no make up . haha . why like so pale ? i think the camera lens .

penat rabak . seriously . nk makan pon mcm tak selera . wahduuh . thinking about my sexy boy . he drew for me my name . haha . he is so tiuuutt ! hahah .. faizal faizal ... all like so kanchong uh . he got no bike . then seldom meet up :( tapi takpe lah . i also miss his corner bareng ! hahaha .. ingat ingat aku . that time terjatoh mase tgh riding . siaw ting tong weiii ! he promised me to eat durian . but NEVER ! the last time i saw him was at wawa's pit :/ i miss him lehh . Noktah Cinta . my song for him . haha . sweet kan aku <3 IKR ! im so fat . i know :/ i eat a lot . temptation uhh . meet faizal je , makan . senang hati aku . ahaha :) OUHH YAA .. HAVING A BOYFRIEND IS REALLY FAR FROM MY VISSION . SERIOUSLY . aku dah takde hati dah patah hati :) so guys , except for Muhammad faizal Sam , go away ok . hhahah . ok aku lapar skrang . lapar gile punye ! haha .. satu hari , satu kali makan . ape ke tidak -.-' im so pissed off at work today . smue aku kene buat :( rejects , footwear .. kanasai . haishhh ..

i love it !

my sexy boy :) i still remember the baju kurung that his wearing , i choose for him ! nice right !!????!! hahaha .. this guy very picky ! cari baju mcm cari ape gitu -.-'

DAY OFF

2011-11-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

ok this one is impossible ! ahhahaah ..

hehh ^.^ ok diam uhh !

i hope im doing my duty as a child :)

i miss you sister <3

so long never go beach ^.^

you can call me PENGUIN :)

how come like so hard to get white dress uhh ?

my day off . supposed to go out with mus . but i cancelled and went out with my darling shafiqah . haven't seen her for quite a long time and we really talk about our family stuff . abg man getting married this friday ! hahah .. buduhnyee cine ! abg sapau finally get married . everyone is sO excited about it . we went to watch the Twilight : Breaking Dawn !! best gile ! bella jadi vampire siol ! hahaha . baby die cute nk mampos . kalo lah anak aku mate mcm tuu . fuuuhhh ! hahaha . Bella and Edward's honeymoon is so sexy and wild <3 ahaha . katil pecah . haha . GANAS NYE ! hahahah . kekek pehh story . honeymoon madang cium cium pat katil pastuu sex session . and then get pregnant . common . western mahh . aiyahh . i got disturbed by the slow unromantical scene . haha . and it is rated PG 13 only sia -.-'' after movie proceed to somerset and went to various shops . IM GONNA DO MY SHOPPING SOON ! hahah . i love to survey first . i dont anyhow buy my stuff . h\hmm . after that dinner with dad . like normal . dad would nag me for not being filial . aiyahh ! in wat way sia ?!!!! wat did i do wrong ? i never smoke , never drink , never druggy , never flirt . im not like any other teenagers uhh . aiyohh . i certainly don't like to go club if i have no partner . i don't want guys to anyhow touch me . even when i go club , don't ever there touch me ! u know wat will happen to ur face ! to avoid from all this , i never stepped into any clubs other than Azzura . i rather sleep at home :) and u guys don't know how much i hate clubbing ! im sorry mus for canceling our meetup today ok . we'll meet soon and don't be sad lah jubo !

Prayer from mom

2011-11-27T00:22:00.006+08:00

hello ! hello !! i received this letter yesterday . mom told me that there's a letter for me from MOE . i was so scared . i thought i was withdrawn from school and couldnt take my N level results . but when i open my letter , i received this !! hhaha ! happy sia aku :) Why top 25% only ?!!!! i thought i worked hard already :'/ berkat mommy doakan aku supaye skolah pandai2 . hahah . Amin !syukur alhamdullilah ! :) i was congratulated by Dr Yaacob Ibrahim for being in the top 25% in terms of academic performance in the level (Normal academic ) and GOOD CONDUCT IN SCHOOL ! hahahahaha . baek kape aku -.- step innocent nonsense ! hahah . siaw ting tong tak tau ehk . haha . but whatever happen , im so happy that i'll be getting my Edusave Merit Award . i dont know whether this award is valuable or not . hahaha . i successfully achieved this award for 3 CONSECUTIVE YEARS . and thanks to dad when i was sec 1 i couldnt retrieve my award because he didn't inform me until i was sec 2 . thanks dad . hahahah . i think i shoould strive harder . im scared for N level :'/ doa banyak2 . orang orang yang di luar sane ; jangan mengutok tapi doakan lah agar berbahagia dan beri dorongan kepade saye , insan yang lemah . okek :) peace (Y) ok nk tdo . bye ^.^ mimpi lizah masok university ehk . hahaha ! peace . good night <3

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2011-11-26T08:39:00.002+08:00

Hi boggy ! you know what ? i miss my chinese boy ; Lucas . his my dream one . hahaha .. i have been seeing him for 6 months already . i lost contact with him ever since we last met . haishh . he got angry because i left him in the mrt out of raged ! something happen and then i decided to leave . and so that was our last time seeing each other . haiyaa . His really tall . about 1.85 ? i miss his calls and texts . you know what ? me and him had been contacting with each other for 3 years . because he went into NS and i can't really meet him though he lived near me . there weren't much stories about me and him :( didnt spend out time together . his really my dream boy <3 but too bad . i don't know may be he forgotten me already . 6 months ago lehh . may be he had moved on . i don't know . my type of person if i liked that guy , i will wait for him regardless of wat happen . thats a strong believe yaa . but i know now is impossible . overall he is ok . just that he is so active in his night life . he even went to THAI CLUB sia -.-'' bapok thai lawa kan :( hahaha . this guy is very hard to read . i don't know why also . whatever it is , I MISS HIM A LOT ! sorry for leaving u .

Promise

2011-11-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

aku rindu die ! hahahaha SYED MUHD ! hahaha ^.^ oiioi ! teman aku pegi shopping ok . nk beli kasot oii . kasot aku smue dah gone CIS ! hhahahah .. tau tau lah N2 nye budak . aku janji next week kite kluar pegi makan dominos pizza ok ^.^ haishh . aku penat rabak nie . narie balek naek bus :'( jauh seii . kene tron naek bus . wahduuhh . tapi takpe . haha . kan best . balek KL , duet dah masok . hahaha . tapi lambat nk withdraw . stupid .. aku ade lah excited nk bagi mami duet . hahaha ! wait ok mom ^.^ tmr i'll pass u the money horr . aku takle type banyak uhh . mami pat dpn aku . entah ape die membebel pon aku tak tau pasl kakak aku , aku mcm tak interested uhh nk dengar . gasak uhh die nk buat ape . hidop die . dunie die . jangan suke menyusahkan orang uhh ok . pasl nie smue bukan tanggungjawab aku . sorry siket . Berani buat , berani tanggung sis . tuu pasl . cari teman hidup biar yang btol . zaman skarang banyak lelaki tak gune . sumpah .. tak tipu . nie bukan 'KUTOK SESSION' uhh . but if guys don't take the responsibility , then who else . and as a girl , please don't give in easily . lesson learnt ehk LIZAH . when you see this kind of issue happening , ponder back why it happen and how to improve the situation .

tapi seriously sia . aku binget pe narie . aku tak suke uhh bile aku kasi mami duet , die beli bende merepek . aku kasi die duet untuk beli makan . things like shampoo all this can buy later right . sometimes i dont like it when i ask her to do something she tries to try her luck and think that everything would go smoothly . muke aku mcm cap duet gituu kan . aku Bank bergerak mahh . aku tak lokek uhh nk kasi mami duet . but i just dont like her to misuse the allowance i gave her because she never know how much i saved to make sure i have enough pocket money for my own . i dont like to ask mom for money . mcm anak yang tak tau malu . walaupon anak ngan mak , aku rase mcm its not right uhh . to beg ur mom for money . fcuking take ur ass off and find ur own money instead of begging others . im not like any other child that still depend on parents money . yaa lorr , most of the time when im not working , i would rely more on dad . well , thats like expected uhh . but i will try my best to find money . im a money-minded person . mom can't predict whether i have money in my wallet or not . because she know's even if i have , i never tell anyone . even when i don't have , i still keep silent . Very unpredictable me :)

don;t be pathetically KPO's

2011-11-24T08:38:00.001+08:00

MORNING ! I woke up so so early today just to update my blog . because there's something that im dying to say . ok .. kadang-kadangkan aku tak paham uhh dengan orang luar yang nk masok campor dlm hal peribadi aku . i dont really get it why you have to be so KPO . kau duduk diam diam jage mataeh kau sudah . sometimes i dont get it why people can't get over their ex and kept talking about them even though its already over . and when they start to move on , why do u have to be sad ? and if you're sad and whatsoever feelings you have there , it means you're still hoping for that someone to return to you . RIGHT ? then why not you say things out frankly and biarkan orang tak bobal pasal pantat aku .

and about me . doesn't mean i text that person , i went out with that person , im falling in love and whatsoever knots . NO . im not that kind of girl that is easy to please . for me , it's not easy to fall in love . Love is something big for me . and i don't take it for granted . and i don't take someone in when they are attached . im a girl . and i know how it feels . i dated all SINGLE GUYS .

i really don't like it when you make it a fuss . padahal kau tak tau apape . uhh ... Move on so fast lah .. ape lahh . frankly speaking , when i was just single back then after my 1 year 8 months relationship with wan , im not jealous when he went out with a girl . i don't care . memang uhh once or twice aku ade mention die pat blog . tapi .. aku cakap situ , habes situ uhh kan . tak payah nk feeling feeling lebih . i never take things seriously . i gave my boyfriend good freedom and trusted him . but in the end , this is what i get . i didn't regret . why ? because i know that i did my job the best that i could . and when it's officially over , aku redha . what else can i do ? Beg him to come back ? and even if he were to come back , things will never be the same . i know . because i've went through back then in my 1 year 4 months of relationship with aziz . i've learnt my mistakes over the years .. i go on life without making others a burden and without giving other people false hopes . in fact wat i was thinking was how to improve on my relationship life and how to improve on my OWN LIFE . aku tak pernah KPO pasal orang laen . tak pernah aku nk ambek tau pon . tapi aku tak paham bile part orang nk besar-besarkan pasal hal aku . what is so interesting about me ? i tell you wat . There's nothing interesting about me and i lead a normal life or perhaps even a boring life . and i don't care . kadang-kadang pompan punye mulot mcm ..... entah lah . nk ckp pon segan .

You are the Apple of my eye

2011-11-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

and so after i got back from singapore , Mus text me . and then we decided to meet up and catch a movie . hahaha . young people very fickle minded . we took time to choose the movie . unfortunately , we couldnt get the ticket on time . haha .. from Plaza Sing , we proceed to cineleisure . Dhoby ghaut to somerset sia . thats like a station by mrt -.-' haha . luckily we are able to purchase the tickets . We watched 'You are the Apple of my eye .' that was the best movie of all ! to be compared the last time i watched . i cant remember the title . its been long time ever since i watch movie . haha . ouhh ya . this mus , selengge tawuk ! movie starts at 9.40pm , start eating dinner at 9.20pm . aiyohh -.-'' hahaha .. then ade hati makan main course lak tuu . in the end we didnt finish the food . hahahaha .. on the way to cineleisure , we saw Amirah too . at the traffic light . there were many people walking , dashing through each other .. she texted me that she saw us . haha ~ i didnt realised there were another text that she sent , telling me the current place she was at . we got to rush for the movie . so we are unable to meet each other .

hmmmm .. after the movie , flag cab and mus sent me home . and then home sweet home .

thank you mus for the treat :)

BMB KL TRIP

2011-11-23T10:47:00.002+08:00

DAY 1

Mom sew for my pyjamas . hahah .. so cute ^.^ im proud of my mom . haha . all of my pyjamas are hand-made okek :)

this is our first visit . the Blue Mosque . its really nice and BIG ! this is mosque is two times bigger than our Sultan Mosque .

Welcome to Heaven !

First dinner .

the flies got SPASM by that lightning . we got annoyed !

ok makcik2 nk pegi pasar ! haha .. make sure we have food to eat in the HOTEL ^.^

PBG

i dont know why my name appear -.-'

at last ! my bed ! i molested it for 3 nights ! hahahaha ..

my treasure box ! hahah a. for soooo long ! at last ! my saxophone !!

brand new reeds :)

young musicians are AWESOME kids ^.^

Girls Club

Time to sleep :)

the best one :)

Day 2

i was so shock to see this by the streets . its like the first thing i saw outside the windscreen !

i was expected to play all this pieces except Memories of friendship . it wasn't that tough though . i think it's manageable . but im sure i can do better if i practice and prepare before the performance . but i did it . my juniors are good too . applaud for the them ! clap clap ! hahahaha .. i love them though they are the most Childish-ess kids in school . hahahah ..

Day 3

i drank Caramel Frappe tiwce in a day . berrrggg !

i call this the VIBRATOR ^.^ hahaha

more like fencing than bowling -.-'

Dyna and Lizah :) the seniors in lane 33 . haha ..

so i didnt get to drop the pin . hahaha ..

budak paleng cute and mokmok sekali in band . hahahaha !

the Englsih , very good :)

Yy shaw taught me to play pool . haha . im a such a dumbass !

terrible kid . this India kid taught me whats Humping position !

Debriefing in the ballroom . very ironic -.-'

Hi ..

Hantu Jepon ..

Pre floor Ball Tournament

2011-11-18T13:41:00.002+08:00

I WAS ONCE A LOVER , FIGHTER , DANCER , COOKER , SINGER , WRITER & PLAYER

I CAN BE ANYTHING THAT YOU WANT ME TO BE .

im too fast . the camera can't capture me ! haha ..

My favourite boy !

do it low on the floor bro . come on . Gimme !

makcik sapu lantai !

teddy bear !

human nature . run for the ball !

ok nie aku step kuat uhh kirekan . Like a boy -.-''

JANGAN KETAWE LAHH!

My closest boys :) iloveyou . muarksz muarksz !

Study Hard . Play Hard

Sometimes friends disagree . So ?

used to be

always my best ^.^

Cute girl :)

the class i sat

2011-11-18T13:16:00.000+08:00

This is Mr Liu Kah Yang . Mr LYK a.k.a Mr Lee Kuan Yew

hahaha ! my favourite maths teacher :) this is an unusual him . that day was our Sports Carnival Day so he had to wear that attire . i know like selengge right . but his the best :)

My favourite Geography teacher . Mr John Lim . thanks for teaching me . thank you for your effort and all the knowledge you've passed down ^.^

this picture was taken during my maths class with Mr Liu ^.^

This is my masai face ! hahahaha .. i miss school :/ aiyahh . no like nothing to study .. i feel so different . one day of not studying doesn't make my life complete . i thought after exams im going to enjoy my holiday . haha . but im wrong ! in fact im working . hahah .. people say i no life . ouh .. okok . i see . thanks for saying that . haha . burok nye muke aku gini macam . hahahahaah >.< ouh myy .. i cant wait to pack my stuff and go KL TOMORROW !! ROWW ROWW ROWW ! hahahahahah ! yahuuuuu ! good bye sin ca poahhh ! tmr must report school at 6.45am . leaving sin ca poahh at 12pm . must prepare ear plug now . later ms syikin nag nag . haha . must also behave myself in other people's country . haha . im thinking too much . mom is sewing my pyjamas ! haha . shooo excited ^.^ thanks Mommy Love <3 My pyjamas all hand-made from mom okek ! haha .. dont play play horr .

everytime i go overseas , she would sew me new pyjamas . that time i go China also the same . hahah . it's my family's tradition . i mean i only get mom's special treatment . hahah ! most pampared one . lol -.-''

Mother and daughter

2011-11-18T09:35:00.001+08:00

Good Morning everyone ! today im in a good mood :) because i can spend time at home . another day with mom :) i really like my face when i wake up from sleep . it's like very fresh of me . haha ! i love waking up early . coz im a girl . so it's a MUST to wake up early . its sunny day today :) great day to walk to aljunied market and eat breakfast with mom . hahaha .. i love mom . i dont want her to be sad everyday . she's not a robot . she's my mother . a human being . if mom is happy , im happy too ! haha .. this morning she complaint that duet tong sampah takde orang bayar . then yesterday i give mom $50 to buy food or whatever she want . but she go and pay the bills !!!!!!! marah nye aku pagi2 gini . i told her that my responsibility is to give mom food and make sure that she won't go hungry but not paying the bills ! all the way i never stop nagging . i always remind mom that :

Setiap anak mesti ade baik , buruknye . saye bukan baik sangat ~

Forever Single

2011-11-16T11:12:00.001+08:00

I am forever single . haha ! im not even missing my relationship life . im enjoying the time of my life . like nobody would control me . unreasonably fight and no dispute ! haha .. im just being cool . me . who i am . Now i know the reasonS why im single :

- im not ready to commit

- i don't like to be nag

- i don't like guys who talks a lot . 'Empty vessels makes the most noise'

- i like family guy . means guy who enjoy and can adapt with my family too .

- i love sporty guys . tough and tall :)

- im always doing my own thing . but i would keep faithful though .

- if school reopens , i don't think my boyfriend would have a chance to meet me .

- i fall in love with guys perfume more than the person itself . hahahaha !

- i love simple guys who love to travel .

- i don't like to waste my prepaid on the phone because i only make emergency calls . imma 'prepaid-conservatives' hahah .

- i dont like guys to procastinate when replying my text . macam aku nk ketok kepale kau gitu !

is it too much for a guy to handle ? i don't think so . this is only applicable for a guy who knows me for a long time .

2011-11-15T10:33:00.001+08:00

i like going to the arcade when im stress . orang ingat aku care bear kan . hari hari happy . im such a monologue person . i speak to myself then the others . interpersonal . even mom agrees on that . im stress up because of money . Ayah lah ! pergi overseas behh duet aku putos sia . kanasai . naseb baek aku kerje -.-' nie bodoh pehh swensens tak kasi duet gaji aku . kerje mcm ape je ! behh kalo pasl duet , mommy pat rumah .. mulot . adoii ! pekpokpekpok ! aku dah tak suke orang banyak bunyi dengan aku . ishh . walaupon kadang2 die tak bobal pasl aku pon , aku rase mcm terase uhh . mcm aku tak buat apape dalam keadaan mcm nie . what am i supposed to do ? ade bapak tiri pon , bapak tiri mcm sial habes . dudok rumah besarkan pantat je . tau balek ade makan . tau balek periuk nasi ade isi . mak aku p cabot buluh pe beli beras smue . kadang2 lelaki nie kepale otak letak dkt buntot !! geram sia aku . malas nk balek uhh gini macam . ape aku nk slalu tak tercapai . ade je musibat musibat nie smue mintak mintak duet . skarang mak aku pat dapor , tgh nangis :'( behh aku nk buat mcm mane ? rambot aku kalo duet , aku dah cabot kasi mak aku lah sia . aku nye orang tak lokek duet . kalo boleh , aku nk tabohkan mak aku dengan duet . tapi diri aku sendiri tak terdaya . 16 nk kerje ape dpt gaji besar ? jual jubo ? aiyohh ~

the past still haunt me down

2011-11-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

i JUST WOKE UP . my eyes one big one small -.-' i was born that way . haishh . so yea .. i dont know what's holding me tight . but i just wanna say that i need someone here . i dont want boyfriend . fcuk it . i dont like the breaking up part and then all nonsense will come out of mouth . hell yea . i dont want any party to hurt in anyways . because i had enough of getting hurts . well , seriously . i miss #21 :'( it has been years since he left . but im still hoping . but i know he won/t be mine forever because of family conflicts . i used to be the first person to see him asleep . and he sleeps like a baby ! haha .. haishh . our family used to be very close . like almost all of the events , we are hoping to see each other . but im always M.I.A because i don't bother much . he told me that 'Love is not a game' but hell yea , he played well . i don't know how much his mother likes me because at that point , i was really rude . i can;t take it . but who cares now ? the story is like years already . he is the person that im always hoping to get a text from . i want him to treat me like those days . but i know it won't happen . it's just a missed . WE are only 1 month old . but his the one i truly want the most . i still keep his picture in my lappy wherever i go . but am not gg to exposed it . i always get cold chill down my bones whenever i saw him . his just too good looking for me . haha :) our relationship is more like a secret one . i don't want mom to know . because of certain reason . at that point when were together , i know he wasn't true . i remember i used to wait for him under void deck then we go school together . cute right ^.^ end up i was late for school because this idiot siap lambat !! haha .. yaa . those was the time . we used to exchange photos in front of our doors and bluetooth it . mcm secret secret gitu ~ haha . he live just in front of me . and i SELDOM see him because he went out and see his current girlfriend . haishhh .. Hurtful much :( i admit that that time , i was so ugly ! hahah .. coz i cut my hair like fishball . i don't look good at that point . so now i slowly improve myself . not to attract him back , but to find my self identity . haha :) im much better now . we still keep in contact after months .. after he shifted house , i see him no more . his like no longer exist except in fb . but i wasn't stalking though . most probably his not going to read this . someone else will and report . aiyahh ~

that's me . i know im ugly . not as hot as his current girlfriend . im the school girl . i spent more time in school then at home . now what ? u're going to call me geek ? nerd ? go ahead . and gemok sia ! ok now im demoralising myself . aiyahh !

Working Life

2011-11-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

hello people ! im so tired now . nevertheless , i still update ! haha .. yaa lorr . then now i dont have written diary mahh . haha . haishh .. i've been working my guts off ! its not about the money . it's about the time that i should use it wisely . since im not schooling , i have good reasons to not stay and shake my legs at home instead , use this time to gain more experience . now im working as a retail advisor , last year as a speed-dialer . very challenging . but i guess , hard work always have it's rewards right . and the reward is Experience and Reflections . it's all about the character . What makes u think that if u dont do house chores at home , u are able to obey the command given by ur manager ? what makes you think that if u have no initiative to do something , u can survive in working life ? haha . i've learnt a lot . Working friends would let you die . i never lie . they will make ur reputation looks bad upon the permutations if u dont follow . that's the disadvantages . but not all are like that . some are good -souls . haha :) well , im surrounded with people who have hearts and friendly . especially my philipino and china friends . haha .. i off my phone the whole day coz my batt died . wahh liaw ! dzack text me also , i cant reply :( so yeahh . whatever . kau nk , kau tunggu aku pehh reply . my reply would be ages or even decades . haha ! actually i have more to talk about . but nevermind . i will continue tomorrow perhaps . haha ..

Gemuk Girls Day

2011-11-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hi ! saye baru balek jumpe my awesome ones ! haha .. wawa , soleha and medot ^.^ cute kan kite ? haha . we went to watch the gemuk girls movie . a theathre play . this is a critic upon malay community . haha . yaa lorr . i agree . here in singapore it is the majority in the past and the minority in present . and they were talking some shits about the analysis . pregnancy .. and politic sides . a stressful movie . i took my day off just to meet them :) haha .. rindu sesangat <3 syed had been messaging me the time i woke up till now ! haha . his cute ^.^ then just now dzack chatbox with me . ilovehimlah ! ahahah . he said im too good for him -.- ape je . i dont expect much lah . coz wat im looking for now is my interest and passion to gain experience . i mean in working life :) a good chance lorr . for now , i dont wanna think who i wanna be with , who i adore the most . coz that is quite far from my mission . btw , was drenched wet today ! no umbrella ! had been rainning for quite a long period of time . haiyaa .

Wawa's Birthday Pit

2011-11-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG ! wa , kau aku nye best lah ok . among the rest . walaupon satu2 ade prangai sial , tapi kite tau mcm mane nk jage hati kawan . btol tak ? haha . sayang kau banyak2 ! see , night of hari raya haji i still have time to meet u ok . i still make it for u ^.^ awwww .. aku sweet kan ? hahah . yeah . walau apape pon , thanks for being there for me . i'll always be there for u like u always do . ok

I love you my club:shopping:lepak buddy ^.^

ahaaa ! sweet kape . haha . thanks to my dearie who ride for me from yishun to pasir ris . jauh sia . pantat aku saket sia . haha ! i owe him a lot uh :) aww . wawa , behave yourself ehk . hahah . wawa asked me where i get cute guys like him . hahah ! i say , it's jodoh . so tak payah worry . Handsome right . hahah . Faizal is his name . the day when he grabbed my hands . AWWWWW <3 hahah . yaa . he grabbed like nobody's business . i love him so much lah . will be meeting him soon this coming thursday ^.^ yeah !

2011-11-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

Celebration Hari Raya Haji at nenek's side cum Alif's birthday ^.^

inevitable night :)

2011-11-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

hey there ~ i just had my awesome supper with my awesome bf24 ! haha . he treats me with happy meals . i was quite full so i decided to eat at a reasonable quantity . so i did ! hahah ! i was from work . so tired . i had to walk , stand , squad . fuuhhh ! exercise , can build leg muscle siolszzsxx ! haha . hehh ^.^ i stood for 5 hours . kalah fall in a squad siol . hahah . so in te mrt , i rush for a seat like kuasu . heck care uhh ! im so tired ready . then luckily , i calling2 bf24 ! fuuhh ! tros member dari ubi maen takraw naek cab jumpe i at aljunied . in the macdonald itself , i met my all friend ! i bumped onto HAFIZ ! hahah . my silat friend last time . i always bumped onto him coz he play soccer at street soccer court near the expressway there . bf24 had been very sweet today . haishh . im so guilty until i cant bear to hold his hand . im seeing someone else . i just dont wanna hurt him anymore ! haishh :/ ouhh come on lizah ! i can't make up my mind . but hell yea . tgk uhh mcm mane . aku pon takkan ke mane pe kan . tetap di sini . there are too many choices that i can't possibly decide in a short period of time coz this include my happiness and future ! aiyahh .

i dont know how far he remember this photo . in this photo ,i wasnt ready yet . haah ! candid habes siol ! this is Dzaynie . his real name lah ok . cool right . i know . haha ! his the mat kotai ! hahah . yaa lorr . but really his got this attitude mcm sebiji dgn ex aku #21--10 tau tau lah siape lah kan . benci sia ku . adoii , nehmind lah . i have another one soon to come also . just wait for wawa to upload fotos . hahaha ! happy sia hidup aku . everyone loves me the way i do :)

Hari Raya Haji Special

2011-11-06T14:39:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Haji smue ! im currently at Shafina's house . f

uuhhh ! My body all bau kambing . hahah ! im so happy to meet my dad , as well as , all friends at masjid like kak moon , kak mas , kak haslinda and many more . things had changed a lot . haha . weill , i guess , i must engaged myself in mosque activity horr .. haha :) get back to guys later ! nk makan ! nomnoomnoomm ! Mama Shafina cooking for us lunch <3

Hols routine

2011-11-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

GONNA MEET THEM SOON ;) im in Yellow , Standing . how happy we were ^.^

haii ! saye tgh boring skarang sungguh boring sekali . i've just been transferred at river island . had awesome friends there . haah ! though marks and spencers was a better choice , but im ok with it anyway . gonna quite swensens . thanks but no thanks . kerje penat nk mampos behh manager text aku step aku boleh kerje anytime gitu ehk . wahh . steady !? so today i rushed out my schedule . need to hurry myself back to school and meet ms syikin at 7pm . we had a briefing with all the KL applicants . haha . was super boring . i yawned like nobody's business . i slept in the bus when otw to home . sendeng kepale aku pat tingkap bus tuu pastu ade bdk motor nie tgk aku . JGN LAH TGK ! maluu lah saye . hahaha ! lol -.-' pastu member tukar position siol . hahah . i was really sleepy that apek beside me also look at me sleeping . Sexcited or wat !? hahah . sorry . i wore covered today . long pants , with Mango jeans jacs . haha . alight at the stop and walk home . i realised that i've been walking a lot . like very long distance . i think i already have leg muscle ! hahah . lol -.- i stand a lot lah actually . when im working , i can't sit mahh . unlike working as Amanah Concierge Services lorr . hahah ! that working place so one of the gerek one sia ! eat . type . eat . milo . go home . thats my everyday routine rooster haha . now very energetic liaw . must be super fast and vigilant ! ok lah . gtg . needa chat at fb . nie anak anak seybokk sia .

Shafina's Chalet

2011-11-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

3 November 2011 , Shafina's chalet . wahh . super cool . get to eat drink . all ! hahah . i fall in love with this FOX jacs though i know it is out of fashion . so ?! hahah . so sad that some people had changed . haishh . Atikah wasn't around . had a great chat with shafina along the way . planned for our work schedule . haishh . very shag sia . i got a lot of things along the way . i miss BGG too much that i can't take it to replace anyone of us to another . haha . treat shafina lunch at mac . was super boring leh . tried to call atikah but cant get her to pick up the fon . so yea . imma taking my off day on Shafina's grad night ! AM gonna be there for her !!!

Sufferings

2011-10-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

Hi ! good evening everyone .. im so full now . ate nasi goreng for dinner . just got home from accompanying mom to visit kakak . was super shag . ate my medicine just nw . actually im having this unusual rashes . Doctor advised me to go and visit the Skin Care Centre if it doesnt heal soon . very scary . well , i got to suffer this alone . haishh . nevermind lah . im too used to it anyway . i dont know wats wrong with my skin . it is very sensitive ever since primary school . i really hope that it will heal soon because i cant take the itch anymore ! :'/ now i got to apply too types of cream . and ate 2 medicines for morning and night before sleep . initially , the previous doctor prescript me a cream and pills . now i have double of it . so who's gonna put sympathy on me ? no one but myself . orang sedap ckp uhh kan pasl aku . wahh . aku nie kan care bear . Happy always . behh si Aim steady je ckp pat wall post die . put the blame on other people lah ape lah . i've stop talking about our past relationship . dah lah sudah . tutop mulot . aiyohh ~ kadang2 aku tak paham dengan lelaki . they get more sensitive than girls . fuck it . anyway , i broke with him because he was the one that destroy my friendship with Aziz . Im looking at Aziz in a perspective of bestfriend . not EX . bodoh sia nk cemburu2 nie smue . cemburu pasl comment gambar yang aku ckp 'Anak Kite' . ape saje tahh . pastuu bobal ngan aku aa uuu aa uu . mcm kite dah lame in r/s . no offence uhh . aziz pon tau lah ape yang die tau . i dont like guys putting their heads up as if they know me best . wat the .. i dont know . i dont think his being humble at all . im sorry ~ furthermore , why hadn't he say that his always been showing tantrum on me . and i became his victim . i didnt take it to heart . did any of his friend know about it ? NO ! all they know that i left him because of Aziz . because i was protecting my friendship with Aziz . because i care more about my friendship with Aziz than my relationship with him . Grow up lah ok . im just putting his mother aside . aku tanak jadi kurang ajar . she's always been there advising wats best for us . and she meant the best way . i understand that . i appreciate her presence .

Im sorry if the content of this entry hurts you in one way or another . but this is the truth that i've been dying to say .

My first Trainning day ^.^

2011-10-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

haishh .. tonight im going to clean up my nails . no polishing because im working in F&B field . wahh . sian -..- but nevermind lah . i think it's more hygienic . i just had my trainning this afternoon . was super tired . worked from 12pm to 6pm . got free food , free ice-cream , free soup , free drinks . everything free siol ! haha .. was tired and at the same time , i ate a lot . i met this waitress . fcuk her ! she's a bitch . sua terang its my first day , pastu complain dgn manager . mcm aku kesalahan besar gitu . binget je aku . pastu aku ape lagi . buat muke sardine uhh ! hahahha . pegi mampos . seblom aku punye angry bird face kluar , baek kau jauh2 ngan aku ! tapi fun uhh . shafina shift petang . so couldnt talk to her much . by now she's still working . hahahah ^.^ im looking forward for more working life . i bet , im going to be really busy . i have two working place , band activities and My First Break Mayor Award commitment . nk go dating with my faizal :) hahahah .. aku sayang die ! haishh .. we've been contacting for at least 8 months . but hadnt express our feelings for each other because i think i don't have the confident in myself and and .... i want him to make the first move . hahaha . baru sweeeee ^.^

Mohana

2011-10-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

Mohana . I didnt know that I would meet her at my losing point . i must say that she picked me up from my weakest point . when i was about to give up . fortunately , i didnt fall in the trap . we stood strong together and carry ourselves and meet books . we did it . we did our revision . we even tried many ways to learn effectively . we went to the park and bought small snacks from Mac cafe and start testing verbally . luckily , the topic we studied for social studies came out ! hahaha . Licky Lucky ! frankly , for all my N level exams , when i read the questions , i smiled upon recalling mohana and the things we did in the library . our memories are just as awesome as us ! hahaha . really . We understand each other . We accept each other .

HAPPY DEEPAVALI !

My Current State

2011-10-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

I have just sent letters to my sister and reply slips to all the organisations .

These are all the schedule . im so confused . and finally got my dates on track .

I have found this . Sec 4N2 happening ! hahaha .. i love my class t-shirt that i customized specially for my class ^.^

now u can see my face . circle circle round round ! hahahaha .

i cant wait for my 2 november to come so that im able to go on my schedule as planned . Jam pack !

English Problem

2011-10-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hi , Good afternoon all . Today I am not in a good mood . I just reached home from a job scope at BGC . its an effective bridging group career agency that i got myself into . thanks to Shafina . I got a good news that I was short-listed to work with Marks and Spenser as a retailer . I met Christina for further details and she really explain to me about my temporary sales associates . I think it is a good start though . Was so thrilled and overjoyed upon receiving the good news . Orang cakap ape tau ; 'Doa seorang Ibu itu amat penting .' haha . i think it is so true . It was tough at first when i went for a walk-in interview . After much rejection and got depressed , I finally sat at home and rest for a moment . and i only had to wait for a few days when Marks and Spencer's HQ responded and call out for training . Wahhh .. My agency , Christina , told me that not all applicants are able to get this job and should consider myself Lucky because i've been nominated and others are still in the pending list . Awesome right :) Well , doa dan harapan itu penting .

That was a plus point of my story . Another thing that happen was that , Hyqel kept on making me embarrassed in FB . his correcting my english . and this had happened for the second time . i was not pleased at all . really . Im not angry that he came and comment on my wall post . so called ''Peer-marking'' . but at least have manners when approaching me . Correcting people is not wrong . Indeed , its a good deed . But the way you're making things seems so unsightly is really killing me inside . Was my English that bad ? Or may be because i came from a neighbourhood school and his from the top school ? Nie uhh melayu . hey , you can see my ego here . at that point when I have to swallow my pride and say 'Thanks' was totally unsincere ! trust me .

Lesson Learn ;

kalau nak tolong orang , datang biar btol siket . Orang kate ape tau ; Jadi orang , biar beradat .

fourNtwo ^.^

2011-10-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Im that craziie student leader in class :)

These are the girls ^.^

My duck face :)

You wanna talk about my ass ? Lets talk about it .

My Best Men !

Kaki gerek , forever !

My burger , My LOVE ^.^

yaa ..

hahaha ! I like this . super epic ! Human natural , cathing for the ball !

This is my cute boy , Yan .

Lizah&Ali . hahaha ! Mohana said this is our couple shirt . but the fact is that ; it's our CAMP SHIRT !

Once upon a time .

Because his my Habibi :) and she's my Super Babe !

orang gila .

told chaa , my Habibi !

Huluuu !

Peace no war :)

Having great time with classmate . Well , this is legend . My legend . hahaa :) Its not just classmates but its a whole family ^.^

shame shame !

2011-10-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

Dunia . sumpah uhh . tak gune kalau kau pegi sembahyang , pegi ngaji nie smue tapi mulot kau tuu mcm puki ayam kau tau ? tsk~ seriously uhh . aku takle tahan ngan kau . the problem always start from u . aku dah stop . dah stop rapat ngan kau . kayoh jauh2 sua uhh . ape lagi tgg . lagi nk ddk situ pastuu bobal pasl pantat aku ? jubo kau banyak bersih . hmm . btw , aku tak kenal kau . anggap je yg kite tak pernah kenal . kau ngan clan2 kau . smue same je ! ishh -..-'

Anayas Lembu

2011-10-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

oii ! this orang gila teach me everything sua . his the first person to sell club tix to me sua . cb sua . now i get the hangover sua . hahha . he like to say sua sua . i dont know why . ehkk wait . he said that his work place got a lot of ah'beng . funny much . and think his the best lah . dont want him to leave SG ;( the most kaki gerek in class among the guys . haishh . too bad -.- i think which girl gets him , is a lucky girl . this include Nurul . hahah .

My Class ; Legend

2011-10-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

this was my hari masai day . haha . hola ! its Lizah and Zubir in the picture . we both really funny . used to adore and admire him . his that Abg Puff ! haha . cute right . i know . i dont fall in love lah ok . i only adore . thats all . im far away to fall in love again . i will just stick to likes and admire . haha . nothing beyond . friends should always stay as friend . Bestfriend should always stick as bestfriend . Like those time i learnt through aim . yaaa . its over anyway .

Im always that kid who participate and i dont care who do not wanna participate . if u dont take this opportunity , then when ? such narrow-minded people is aside of my story line . sorry ehk sister . gua chillex punya . these are my happy moments . i got geared up because i dont wanna leave my fats to grow even more . burn calories . stay active and proactive ! ade kepatot orang ckp aku 'Strict' ? siaw . my face ? im not strict , im firm in all ways . to get things organised . if u dont like it , then try to sit in my position . i'll let u have the feelings . i gotta do the right moves . if not people would think im Bossy like you ~ i have my own ways . if other's can accept , why cant you ? tanak ckp uhh kan . Jealousy is really a bad traits . you already brainwash them . and i wont rinse with water . coz , im not into it . i would lead my own life . I have life , do you ? I miss my class so much . yesterday when we ton , angelo said that im the 'Mom' and Zhi Wei is the Daddy of class 4N2 .Zion is my ex husband because last year he was the class vice chair . hahah . very funny ^.^

these are my parents . haha ! Mr Ong and Mdm Chan is my form teacher . i love them . even sometimes they are very irritating . haha . Mdm Chan uhh . She like to fart in class then act blurr like sotong ! Me and He chen caught her . hahah ! that Epic moment .. Mr Ong uhh . I like to mock him because of his rabbit teeth . Im so bad right . I know ! hahahahaah >.<

Wishing for the Stars ** 4N2 never die :)

2011-10-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

multi-event . Conan&Ali's Birthday Bash and Class Bbq outing . THREESOME !

Went Barbeque-ing with my class , 4N2 .. It was awesome with them ! From shopping and pushing the carts around in the ntuc . collecting funds . went to the cashier for don't know how many times . i think the auntie fed-up already . hahah ! All co-operated well . Alhamdullilah :) more than enough money .. Thanks to Conan that he booked a bbq pit at this condo . really a tragic moment . haha ! we were chased out of the condo because we are not the resident there . got scolded for wearing wrong swimming attire . hahaha ! that Indian security guard .. 'go cook his curry at home lah' .. i heard sanjog said that ! hahah ! funny or wat . we went shopping for food items at about 4plus and start bbq-ing at about 7plus . Mr Ong was there . he ate a bit and had to go . he bought our class fotos . haha ! Angelo brought his girlfriend along . the more , the merrier . all were well prepared for the worst weather . and so we decided to take the last bus to ECP and overnight there . hahaahah ! last bus . fortuntely . otw there , mohana kept on reminding me to buy bottles of plain water . coz we had enough of carbonated drinks plus our throat is really dry ..

Best cooker ! Sanjog my hunks ^.^ hahah :) he has always been taking care of the bbq-ing food . VOLUNTARILY ! hahaha :) and me , anayas , mohana , sanjog , ariffin , angelo , kenwin , farhan , zion ton like craziee . we were like hikers . with bags . once we reached our lepak-ing place . we played games . haha ! true and dare , Polar bear and many more . while playing the true or dare , someone asked me , 'If you had a chance , who would you date in our class ..' haha ! at that point , i feel like cutting my tongue . i answered truthfully , 'Anayas!' hahaha ! he also said that his gonna date me ! awwwww <3 hahaha . yaa . but i take it as a game . whether or not is a game , its another story of our personal life . and so . i spoke frankly to those who were there about why those girls hadnt attend our outings . because of me . they were shocked by that . yaa . i have nothing to say to this kind of people lah ok . kau punye pasl nk buat ape . kau dah lanchau weii pasl aku , lagi ade muke nk bobal ngan aku . mcm pukimak kau tak ajar kau gitu uhh ehk . haha . tau tau lah . aku malas nk layan . i dont bother . Mohana always consoled me . clock strike 4am and we lay by the bay watching stars and head lay on each other's tummy . haha . sweet . Zion lay on mine , I layed on Farhan's . the eyes shut :) walked off the location abt 6am .. yahoo ! home sweet home ! hahah !

Often , I am the hungriest kid on Earth !

aku dah Wangi ! after swimming swimming ^.^

Both looked alike :)

We never had a perfect photo ~

and if his away , imma gonna miss him a lot >.<

So this was our last photo of the day :)
Anayas beside me , ariifin , Mohana , Kenwin , Sanjog , Angelo , Zion and Farhan
this one all Kaki Overnight <3
Syed muhd had to rush home coz his friend is at his house . Liar !

Dedicated for you ok

2011-10-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

Tajuk Lirik: Ku Di Sini (OST Gelora Di Hati Sara II)
Artis: Fauziah Latiff

Ku di sini meratapi kasih hilang pergi
Mungkinkah kembali
Ku tak pasti hingga Kini
Meratapi kasih dukaku di hati

Ku mengerti pengorbanan ini
Ku tempuhi dengan rela hati
Walau perit akan ku lalui
Kerna kasih bukan kerana membenci

Andai beginikah penghinaan
Kan ku titip kesabaran
Dari segala dugaan

Oh Tuhan
Kau dengarkanlah rayuan
Cintaku yang berpanjangan tak kesampaian
Yang ku dambakan tiada haluan
Yang berpanjangan tak kesampaian
Yang ku dambakan tiada haluan

Ku di sini melewati hari penuh duri
Ku masih di sini

temaseh banyak banyak ye Muhammad Irwan Bin Roslan . Gua caya sama luu .

Irwan , kau nabe cau chibai kau tau ?

2011-10-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

In the dark , i thought you will be thinking of me . same like i do . being missed . but i was wrong for another second . u left me for that kind of girl ? sial uhh . kau pikir aku pompan tepi jln mcm die ? jijik kau tau . i thought u have better taste . but i was wrong . fcuk it . you should have say it right infront of my face . thanks for everything . thanks for the waiting . so much of a sweet talker . i cant believe that i fall for u . when i told u to wait till my exams are over . u told me that you'll be looking at my photos ,waiting for my return . and guess ... where did u hide my photos ? ur ass ? hahaha .. yaa . ok then .

so much of my writings .. about u . about how i used to missed . didnt missed an entry . wrote it everytime before i start my revision . u're like my revision . i never wanted to forget about u . and guess . i had to erase . afterall , its just a diary . writings wHere moments won't stop :)

2011-10-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

and soo ... i went out with this Walden ^^ we had fun today at town interviewing and guess wat !!!!?? ALHAMDULLILAH ! hari ini rezeki aku ! I'll be working in Swensen as a part time Waitress and also in Marks and Spencer as a retailer :) watever the pay is , i will take in . because my mission is not about the rating but the time . Let me use my time wisely and usefully . daripade aku melepak kan . haha :) and hello , aku bukan budak melepak bawah blok ok >.< hey , how's the picture above ? Im Sexy and I know it ^^ hahah ! but my tummy is really saddening ! haha . Sophisticated much yaa . so tmr i have interview again . Alhamdullilah .. Rezeki datang menimpah . akan aku berusaha weii :) My Mom trained me well to be a hardworking Soul yoo !

Welcome to my World of Brisk walking . i dont know how many times have i been to town , walking through and fro like craziie . hahaha . Actually went to survey with shafina for her prom night dress . unfortunately , i dont have prom night , so yea . its ok lah . tak heran sama prom night . waa prom atas KATIL WEII ! haha . Slumber party at the end of this year . Im so gonna buy my sexy Pyjamas . hahah . in the midst of my tiredness , i walked home with full of delight . the first thing when i reached at my bed side , I KISSED MOMMY two , three times to show her how much I loved her . and thanks to her that i became stronger ! haha . A mother's blessing is a reality for me . I know she always prayed for me . and I would also pray hard for our wealth . but at this moment , the least i could do is to give her happiness while kakak is away . she'll be back another 3 months . and i will always awaits her return .

ouhh yaa , watever job scope im in , i dont expect people to look down on me . as long as it is Halal . then Alhamdullilah , Amin <3

Social Life

2011-10-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

this is my face . my tired face . this one when im doing my F&N coursework . i yet to sleep the last night i guess . my eye bag . rabak sia -..-' ok . yaa . IM SINGLE ! like Forever Single . and so i watched this episode 'Why are you Single' . i realised that kan kan .. aku nie prangai . ouhh yaa . im very unpredictable . im used to be independent and yet no men , no cry lorr . and i have straight aims . and my aims are .. To achieve good careers and provide Happiness for my family . especially Mom . I will go through thick and thin with her . though die irritating . tapi tetap aku sayang sama dia kok ! hehh ^.^ another thing about me is that , im Ego . seriously . i dont know why . i thought of my own decision without even considering anyone's feeling because sometimes i know im strong . well , im not saying that im over confident . but with the help of my quality friends and family , i am able to go through life . and furthermore , having a boyfriend is seriously very hard to handle . im not saying that i dont wanna carry the burden . but for me , im not ready for a serious relationship . i know wats a serious r/s is ok . i dont wanna be labelled as .. ehk deknie 'EX si dekni' . i dont know about other girls . but im embarrassed . aku tanak jadi mcm Pompan Tepi Jalan yang Bermataeh dengan Jantan Tepi Jalan . u see wat i mean .

no offence uhh . but first , i wanna feed my parents first . I want to feed them like how they nurture me . though i know that they don't have a proper Parental . im ok with it . to all the teenagers outside there , if your parents can't provide you with a proper Parental , then i guess , as a child u should start thinking on how to return back all the sacrifices that your parents had done for u . jgn ckp sape yg baek , sape yang burok uhh . tuu smue kite tolak tepi uhh kan . Let me stress you , Parents ok . both parents too have a very important role to play . Mom , had been strong throughout the years . whenever im weak , i would look at her and say to myself

'LOOK AT MOM . SHE'S THERE EVEN WHEN TIMES ARE BAD .'

thats already good to motivate me ^.^

They are my motivator -.-'

Wawa Ksiaw <3

Mohana ^^

back after exams

2011-10-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

hello ! kite forever gadoh . haha ! yesterday , went to Grandlink and karaoke . Stress-free dok ! tak payah fikir pasl rumah , kerje , ex-boyfie and all . Sing Song saje ! hehh ^.^ im tired lehh . baru habes N level . currently waiting for results . malas sia nk ddk rumah . tau tau uhh . one thing about me is that i dont like people to nag and nag at my ears . all the usual thing uhh . i dont understand why mom need to nag while doing the house chores . might as well i go out and find camps and then at least learn something new right . well , im waiting though . im just waiting for the date my Military Band would bring me to KL and perform there . and at the same time , i would signing up for MFBA study abroad . so i wont be in singapore for this few weeks i guess . i've renewed my passport and currenty waiting for my collection . perhaps this afternoon with Sammy Buddha (Aziz) . at last we are in good terms .

in terms of friends condition , well .. everything had gone smoothly . even without the two . alah selame aku hidup pon aku tau bawak diri sendiri . haha . nothing to lose about . and im not saying that i've lots of friends too yaa . i have quality friends that i should treasure and cherish . which is more better than quarreling about something which is so simply yet complicated :) hahaha ... okok , needa go and bath .

ouhh yaa , i update my blog because ... hehh ^.^ someone is reading my blog . hahah :)

2011-05-19T17:33:00.000+08:00

Mother !

What i want to achieve ..

2011-05-19T13:35:00.000+08:00

I'll tell you what i want in life .

i wanna have great family .

i want my mom to get a better health condition .

have good house conducive environment .

have good education and lead to good career and then earn money .

have a better quality of life . make everyone happy .

even when im not .
i wanna have both car and bike license if i have enough money in my pocket .
i'ld like to have story books in my bag everywhere i go .
coz i like to read . just that i dont really show .
i would like to walk along shore bay with mommy , smiling ..
wearing something white .
i'ld like to hold her hands while she's shaking .
i'ld like to make her smile , laugh ..
i wish to give her all i could .
doing my best in life . she's the only soul that i trust .
even after my marriage . i trust her than my bloody husband .
thats if im gonna married .
im not going to start a marriage at this young age coz im financially instable .
i still nid to support mom .
these are more to personal achievement .
well , its up to Allah . im just planning .
Planning still pending and approving . hahah :)
Mom is my top priority . followed by studies ..
and then myself .

something wakes me up .

2011-05-19T13:03:00.000+08:00

As the time goes by .. i just realised wats the important of being puntual .

i learnt well that i should never procastinate wat im supposed to do .

and now im suffering from it .

i shall accept the consequences that i have obtained badly about my results . i studied a day b4 exams .

guess wat ? it didnt work at all .

wat i nid to improve is to be consistant in studies .

i shall never let other thing distract me . especially friends ..

boyfriends . -..-

let all of them flung . i guess i nid to stand on my two feet .

example , when im taking my n level , boyfriends is not there to give me answer and make me pass .

its the fact and reality anyway .

Presents !

2011-05-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

My presents :) There's more eheeem :) two more .. haha ..

Surprised Much

2011-05-05T10:00:00.000+08:00

hmm .. im very angry . dissapointed and everything . its always . trying to do this kind of things during exam period ? u knew it urself . Prelim ehkk ..

Birthday Bash

2011-05-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Today is my birthday and it is a must for me to post something . first of all im very happy that my facebook is flooded with wishes . im really glad that someone finally create facebook . hahaha. ok . actually i was so fcuked up today . pasl ade uhh ni pukimak nie kan pat PERKAMPONGAN , tak tau nk face aku . and tau takot tundok bile nmpk aku . sial pehh pompan . asl ? chol pahh nk face aku ? buto lahh . jgn sampai aku nmpk kau pat luar , aku conferm2 bagi kau habes2 nye . jgn panggil aku lizah kalo aku tak sentoh muke kau tau ehkk . dont ever take advantage on me . aku paleng benci skali . and aku tak heran pon sape pat blakang kau . sebb kawan2 kau . pls ehkk . aku berani sorang bukan berani ramai mcm kau . pundek . malas si aku nk layan kau .tapi kau punye btol2 aku takle take it uhh . dah takde tyme lagi uhh nk ckp baek2 ngan orng2 mcm kau nie . tak tau keneang budi nye binatang . tak tau erti pengorbanan . nie uhh bdk2 zaman skarang ehkk .. takde kpale otak . orng baek ngan kau , kasi kau pinjam barang aku , pastu tak tau nk bagi balek . prangai pe . tgg je . aku kasi kau malu lah sial .

aku low-profile . but doesnt mean aku takde ramai kawan pat luar sane . aku bukan mcm kau nk cari fame nie smue . bagi aku , nie smue tak berfaedah . u're old and full of craps . sape2 kalo nk masok campor , tolong , takmo nk menyebok pat sini . takmo nk step kau punye bby gerl ke ape binatang tuu . MENJIJIKKAN . phm ? hari nie aku all out uhh . dah takle carry uhh ngan prangai sial kau . aku kasi kau aku punye sial paleng pekat nye , 'SIAAAAAL !'

and of course i will update on all the fotos for my birthday celebration . haha :) Thanks AZIZ AZIZAN and irwan pundek :) hahah . u guys are the best of all .

Embrace the Joy

2011-04-18T09:46:00.000+08:00

Good Morning Readers ! haha :0 another day in school . Very pleased that my dear shaw sian has kindly lend me his lappy so , here i am updating . hehe .. Aiyohh . i have 4 periods to kill . other half of F&N students doing practical . aiyohh .. boring lah . Mama chan ask to do essay . but i did not bring my books . hahah . DEVIL ! hahah .. ouhh yaa . i took this picture last saturday at Art Science Museum . Walk really a long distance from Esplanade to the Marina Site there . Had great talks . So i met Cousin Nurul and Rian . Cousin Nurul was talking abt one of these girls that used to be closed with me but now had yet to be someone "FAMOUS" . haaa .. Seriously , i dont care anyway . I always Embrace the Joy in me . I might loose a friend but i gain ten thousand experiences . hahah .. As long as i treasure my loved once . its ok ready . ouhh yaa , mommy will be missing in action for 4 days . Mon-Thurs . haha . YESSSSSAAAA ! at last . hahaha :) Faizal own me big time yea . Wanted to come and see me last friday . but didnt appear . till now didnt text me . hahaha ! Chol ehkk . haha .. he might have felt guilty . but its ok to me . because the sentence really apply to me well.

Don't Make Someone Your PRIORITY when They Made You an OPTION .

I know that i have been repeating this sentence but yea , its really meaninigful to me . To make me feel more stronger to move on . I hope these would help some of my friends to realised that things can happen in one way or another . Ouhh another thing is that i discovered that , according to Von Luschan's chromatic scale , my skin is no. 26 which is TANNED ! hahahahah :) yea , i like my skin tone this way .

Love , Lizah Azali

Frends

2011-04-14T13:20:00.000+08:00

I miss all of them . Long time never lepak horr . aiyohh . im so sorry guys , i have to leave everything behing coz im in the midst in trying to grab my dream . i nvr mean to neglect u ok . I know u guys miss me me too . but yea , life has to go on no matter wat happen . I have been the stranger u met but hey , we are friends . In fact good friends . i will nvr forget how u have treated me well from the start . I learnt that I will never make someone my priority when they make me like a bloody option . Twinnie , frankly , u got it all lahh k . i have nothing to say about u're old enough to do wat u're supposed to do . so as i was talking about sense of responsibility . you reflect yourself .

music is my remedy !

2011-04-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

I can feel tbutterflies in my stomach ! haha OMG ! Tmr is already gonna be our SYF ! and i cant wait ! haha :) see that ? thats my solo part ! haha .. and yea at last Mr leng requested that Tenor sax tone down at bar 66 . specifically at 66 ! haha .. wish me luch for tmr yea. ouhh yaa , Dads' watching me . and this is my last performance . haha >_< actually i have another 30 more pictures to upload but this comp taking too long like Ah'KONG sia ! aiyohh ! tsktsktsk >_< if i have free time then i'll upload yea . im really sorry readers , but in times of difficulties, you should understand the most :) thanks for the family and friends support throughout my hardships in school . especially the teachers ! OMG ! they really had hard time teaching me yea . thanks to all my bbys' that i go through school through thick and thin :) Love you <3 wat ever happens to tmr , i will accept it !

Don't make someone your priority when they made you an OPTION !

my life

2011-04-04T09:36:00.000+08:00

I Lead a very healthy life. Participated in Sports Carnival last friday with all my team mates. we had great times although we lost in the end .. but alt least we make it to the semi finals yea . haha :) gonna upload more fotos yea ! ouhh ya really enjoyed band camp last march hols ! hahaha !

2011-04-04T09:17:00.000+08:00

Doing Well .. M.I.A a while .

Thanks to those bitches . because you've become part of them ,

then i pronounced that you're a

----- .

Dont bother much :)

Lizah Azali

March Holiday

2011-03-13T07:41:00.000+08:00

Lets talk some sense . Im really not in midst of studying . I mean i can study but i cant get my full concentration . Im really tired uhh . u know y ? bacause im too commited to band . im not trying to put the blame on it . but someimes i think its not reasonable uhh . Hey , my holidays (1 week) i have to attend 5days practices . and the other 2 days which is on the tuesday and sunday i had to rush to do my homework . i mean spare some thoughts uhh . Tuesday had to get ready for camp and sunday need to get gear fot monday school reopen . Tuesday i have to attend F&N class from 8am-1pm and then stay a while to collect my report book with Ms. Loh . SIAL kan ? stress sia . i dont mind to loose my holidays uhh . but wat im worried of is that my homeworks cant complete on time . is there any better way ? We dont even have the luxuries to rest and relax . Everytime , intensive . This camp , i nid to go and study . And i know everyone is not happy abt it . im really sure . we whinebadly like a child . Yaa , Allah berikan aku pertunjukmu :) Kuat kan lah semangat ku :)

This week

2011-02-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

Today , i was super saaad :( everyone busy with valentines here and there . I just came back from town again . met Rian , Sonic , Dzack , Ella , Nazeera , Mel , Adam , Shasha , Rudy , Shorty , muslih , Sufrin , Lala , Nancy , Mimi , Ree , Fafa Sugar , Earaa , Raz and many more . We were super kecoh . meet at 313 then drop to scape . Meet a few chaps there . Walk again to Far east and bought liquor . they drink . but i dont . im sorry . i will never . haha . so we lepak a while . not telling at where -secret- hehe ^^ took pictures . ouhh yaa , i met this guy . fcuk sia . he so hensem then know wat ? his 21*girlfrend's bestfriend's boyfriend . that's y he look damn familiar to me . haha ^^ talk a bit . i noticed that his forever with his fon . meaning that his att . obviously lah . hmm , i tak suke ade frend frend that know 21* . close frend some more . ishh !

im so happy that i met chocs frend . Adam ;) chocs bestfrend ;) haha . yeah yeah . he accompany me go penin collect shirt . then we go makan at mac . this mac waiter so gatal sia . ish ish .. not hensem some more . hehe . hmm , afterall adam treat me chocs ^^ haha . happy happy banget .

i still love my old . My bear-bear . haishh ~ wat to do yeah . nevermind lahh k . ouhh my .. did i just say LOVE ? im just trying to heal myself up . i dont know . his always in my heart yea . treasure everything that we've spent together . but ... yeah . dont wish to elaborate more . i dont want the whole world to know . i've talking a lot lately . pls read my blog okok . many things had happened to me over this year . this is an enormous fcuking different of me this year . i just wanna have more frends . instead of sticking with one and we always fight and do shit stuff . dont waste tyme uhh horr , we happy happy . smile smile and laugh laugh with outside frends better .

*will upload fotos soon .

Cousin , waaa Love u many-many

2011-02-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

I loveeee it :) hahah . Sweet escape ehkk darling-darling <3 haha . baek punyaa . Met rian and ecah at orchard abt 7plus . supposed to mit toe , but hell yea . haha . so took a walk to far east . MAKAN FIESTA ! hehe :) ferst up ! MARS BALL . hahah . Marvellous u know . hehe , rian siaw-siaw ! he said , NNT NURUL JEALOUS . hehe . i was really fuxxy abt buying my puny clips . haha . sorry dear . im always like that . i took ages to think wat to buy . so many varieties . Town .. Wahhh , ramai nye orang (sarcastic) . hehe ^^but good wat . so many ppl like very hectic . last night relax je jln . hahah . then took quite a lot of fotos . normal uhh tuu . this is not vainpot lahh . we are just having our time together . afterall , i ate egg sandwich and drank a cup of hot chocolate for my dinner . My sister was saying , "Ehk , kau mane2 smue bwk buku ehkk ?" .. -.- ok pe . i dont just go out . but i also study . you know inside my bag got many things . i ran away from home , i bought my books . Ironically . but fact lahh . i told mami that if i were to ran away from home , u know where to find me . the answer is - SCHOOL . by hook or by crook , i'll still be in school .ok , then we end of our night with lepak at taka . as usual . Toilet pon dah memanggilkan . coz rian went to mix the freezy drinks at 7-11 . siaw-siaw . Ecah LOVED it . haha ! sui2 sampai umah mandi and fb a while . after that , text my bangla; Nasir . sorry again Bangla , i sleep again :(

Can u Stop it ?

2011-01-31T10:31:00.000+08:00

i dont like it if people always put all their hopes on me. Do you know wats the burden ? stupid right ? dah orang tak suke tuu biarkan je lahh . if can , bring urself away . What is the matter with him . everyday i got so stuck-up with him . i tried my best to help u feel better day by day but now , who's gonna heal me up ? u ? ouhh come on ? our stories had ended long time ago . im sorry , i nid to change . ouhh i dont care about transportation ehkk hello . im TOO used to public transport and tak mengahrapkan orng . im sorry uhh . if i had to say this . i dont want to , but u forced me . we are just friends . not over the limits ok . im going away from him because i dont want to become the old me . u can say watever u want . u gotta move on . im telling u this . i may not be meeting u anymore .

who are u ?

2011-01-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

" Mind Your Own Business "

Admired and Awe ..

i knew it . haha .. my hands feels like landing on ur face .

attitude sucks uhh . thankfully , i learnt to give and take .

and take , take and take .. if i cant take it anymore ,

i'll let it go .. Guess wat ? POOMMM !? hahha . (sarcastic)

i dont feel like telling the whole world abt wat really happened .

most of the time , i'll be like .. 'ouhh , Watever lahh ehkk . '

exhausted of the way it is . ouhh yaa , just be happy lahh k .

ouhh , abt the class tee thing , i dont know uhh . the class decide .

it doesnt matter to me uhh .

coz wat he could do is just , COPY . EDIT . CREDIT .

fcuk ehkk . yaa lahh . so dishonest .

im trying my very best to control my temper ,

if u see .. i've changed a lot .

from

someone who likes to confront and High Boiling Point
" Who's that damn kid !? I wanna talk to her "

someone who don't bother and Low Boiling Point

" hmmm .. Its ok . dont bother lahh . I dont care anyway . "

weekends boomsz

2011-01-17T10:41:00.000+08:00

im giving out love :)

hahah . really tired over the weekends .

fuyoo .. i got my bursary award last saturday night . was paticularly sad that twinnie wasnt there for me coz she's got some typical practices for chingay . so yea . some how , when i was at the cc , my heart broke into pieces . that both my parents is really a self-centred kind . really over-joyed that i received the award and mom and dad doesnt want to take picture together . thanks to dad yeah . hmm so head to Nurul's crib . u know wat happened ? i fought with her coz of baba . dont feel like telling the whole world abt it lah k . so i was like some sort of 'getaway' .. by then , my euphoria ended . sadness came to knock in . i cried the whole night and asked for forgiveness when i saw mom . i hugged her that i didnt want to let her go . i loved mom too much . that i cant effort to loose her . so when mom head back home , i ton with my cousins and friends at yishun . i laughed all the way . hahaha . kamal accompanied me to macdonalds at the interchange a while . he also eat . hahaha . and that's really the first time we hang out together . i really seldom talked to him . i can see that his developing to a SUPER FLEXIBLE electro dancer . sotong him ! and then i while then i met 2 jokers . aiman and arriola . hahah known as arriola . muahaha . we talked abt bangla half the morning . thanks to me . and the wind was blowing frantically till my spine . fuyooo ! knock out at 6.38am .. woke up at 10.36am . head home around 12plus . sleep all the way till 6plus . bby fcuked up coz he tried to get through me . 25missed calls . hahaha . siaw . his really got a heartache with me . bby went back to his camp this morning :( hmmm .. im gonna miss u real bad:(

band

2011-01-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

this is my family .
this is where i belong .
i feel the very strong sense of belongings here .
so went for cca open hs for 2011 new recruitment .
this children is not just a child .
but they are great in one way or another .
we start from sketch and now look where we stand .
still persevere , still strong in spirit .
we grew together as the year goes by .
not 1 but 4 years of hardship .
now i know wat it means by hardwork .

anyway , im school now . so fully committed .
been bz so dont bother to ask me to go out .
guess ? i would be bothered . now , wat mommy say , i must listen and abide .
im trying to galvanize into making an effort to study .
ill'give the best that i can .
and i know allah will be always there to hear my prayer .
boyfrend now always visit me at home ever since school reopen .
visit when parents are around . i swear . hahah .
thanks for making the effort .
i ate a lot today . i gained 2kg .
sister D asked me , 'KAU TAK BOLEH STOP MAKAN EHK ?'
obnoxiously , answered yea "=.=
i could feel that my knees trembling upon 200days aways from N level ~

Alhamdullilah Day

2011-01-04T16:01:00.000+08:00

Though there were numerous vessels at this great distance in the horizon on every side, yet the vast spaces between them, like the spaces between the stars,—far as they were distant from us, so were they from one another,—nay, some were twice as far from each other as from us,—impressed us with a sense of the immensity of the ocean, the "unfruitful ocean,"

This is my Morning Blessings when i was out of shore to Pulau Ubin .

Today is going to be my 'Alhamdullilah' Blessings that i have reached school safely. My Super Hero of the Day is ; my BANGLA , Nasir . His been the first one to wake me up . if not i dont have the time to cook my nasi goreng . thenthen , Bby called me real soon after i drank my hot chocolate . haha . Thirdly , Anissul called me twice while im taking my bath around 6plus . he was so kanchong and said sorry manymany time . hahah . Syg-Syg always , my Fofrok . his my morning madness . always been my permenant morning soul :) i met sis D and we were so geared up to school . as usual , our morning madness is to giggle all the way . reached school really early . it's out 1st day of school and we already set target for our N level . well , my heart was pumping fast when teachers emphasized on the word , 'Important for SEC 4N/5N' . i cant imagine if the moment of truth has appeared . sis D talked to me and i can really feel the trigger shaking down my spine . everything is back to SQ 1 . school makes me feel like a student of vast skills . Mdm Chan remained to be our ur form teacher . yahooo ! hahah .. and then i saw ikahh , DAMN ! i missed her so badly . i saw her presence and immediately squeeze her my tight hug :) this year , i was nommited to be the vice chair again . coz wat im rushing for was my points . okk .. sad sia . sis D tak dpt jadi at last si Zhi Wei . Blurrrr -.- special thanks to Siti Nurlela for washing and ironning my brand new uniform . thanks syg !! hhahah . i saw all the sec1 kid coming in and they looked like little toddlers . hahaha . dwarves . happy schooling .

To all my Sec2 friends going to Sec3 , ouhh hahahha . CONGRATS ! i was really amazed that i saw farhan and he really looked like Adam Lambert !! hahah . and yea , Nabil lokked like Justin Bieber . hahah ! Sabrina , pls stop laughing . hahaha

shortter than short

2011-01-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

Zylaa Qateq :)

that shorty is my chatty chaps .

she was the only one that knows wat i truly felt .

its not because i met her in a strange way , but i met in a very typical way .

it all start in th Boost Your Confident programme .

when we start to dance and had fun . hahhaa . really and we were both super duper friendly .

i like her way of life .

she's not the any kind of girl .

we both have lots of similarity

the first time i talked to her was about the natural beauty . haha

i really like to talk abt it .

because we are that kind ""

like we enjoy life without make-ups . ok lahh , i was once upon a time the Queen of make-up .

and then i realised that , i must be brave enough to only wear make up when its needed .

not for casual wear . we had plans ahead .

she also shared with me about her personality in school .

i think that should be the way . be someone who has passion in learning .

ok , zylaa just loose someone that meant the whole world to her .

darling , dont be sad k .

u still have Wawa and me :)

remember ? its not the end of the world .

r/s will come by itself . wats important is how u gonna cope with studies . coz N is on our way now :)

I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND LIIZYLIIAA ♥

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2011-01-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 5th MONTHSARY !

celebrating this joyous occasion together ,

my Super Mario ..

happy 5th monthsary . hope that we'll go through thick and thin together .

and bby going for P.O.P seii . that 24km horrr ..

luck luck ayg ;)

1 week more to go .

yesterday bby so bad uhh . he went to snatch my stuff .

my pillow . no way and no jln horr !

sorry dear .. last night u were at my crib and i was sleeping .

he went off b4 i woke up . tsktsktsk .

ferst thing when i woke up , i asked mom , 'Wan mane ?'

she said he left ready . and when i on my fon , guess wat ?

hahahaha .. bby wish me 5th monthsary . hahahah .

i so bad that i made my slip come first b4 him . hhahaha . sorry . i was so asleep with my mickey :)

meet u soon again k . had great time with u at the dancefloor :)

i wanna start with dialogues .

2011-01-02T02:57:00.000+08:00

y is it everytime i have to be the one saying , 'ouhh yaa .. my fault . im sorry . ' . or the dialogue i always say , 'u think i bother ?' .. really uhh . i felt sickening in the ass . like im always the one at fault . or y not that person should start thinking positively about me . never ask me y i never reply . last night when i was at scape , i only bring my idiot battery flat fon , ezlink , posb atm card and contact lens lens case . that was such a lucky that i have my DORAEMON pocket . hahaha [bear-bear] . i wanted to be myself . i want to free myself . i dont like it when people expect me to do this and that . i know its a kind of 'suggestion' to lead to a better path . wat for if i say more ? no use . the dialogue i always is that , 'Let it be ..' i think thats the best . i really hate it when that someone expect me to do this and that . coz this is my life . i know wat i nid to do . come on uhh .

my 311210 , i didnt even wish my dad happy new year .. and wat makes u think that i must think better of u than him ? i cant even remember my dad's number sia . i only top up on the 1/1/10 its not that i purposely forget my closest but i actually wanted to be on my own . just spare me a little bit of ur tots . never asked abt my opinion . never asked abt my feelings . y should i even bother to ask for more ? coz i believe that i can control myself out of my feeling of sadness , angriness .. i can bring myself over . y haven u th ink abt it ? i was so sad that even the person i made her so important in my life , that i even forgive and take in , and never even make the effort of meetting me a while . just a while ... NEVER . i was so dissapointed . and the person i trust most , doesn't even compromise abt making us together again , a fresh .. ouhh k .. last night bear-bear never talk much to me . but his a bit fcuked up that i was talking to my frend all the time . i said sorry immediately . and yea , very directly , straight forward uhh . i like that way so much .

so everyone , i wanna make this once ;

HAPPY NEW YEAR , PULL YOUR EAR !!

hope that u'll be blessed with a better tomorrow . and stop being the negative u . it'll take time to think abt it . ouhh yaa , i have to aso do my own reflection . abt myself . abt wat i shud focused abt . i dont wish to be too compleasant abt wat i have now . i believe , there is still room for improvement :) everone of u here are as special .

my
Family and deceased
Jin Toro , big sister D , Twinnie , Bear-bear , Rian , Nurul , Bam , Nasir Bangla , Nepal friends , Afiqah Hairuddin , BGG !! , Fafa , Amir , Era , Sasha , Dice ,Penjab , Fahmi , Aiem , Pekjal , Ika halim , Inn , Yumiko friends , work mates , class mates , soul mates and aquitance ..

* sorry if u're not listed here . but anyway , i'll appreciate that this wish refers to everyone :)

i was born to be wild

2011-01-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

ouhh , come one ! dont take things TOO seriously .. Countdown on the go . hahaha

Location: Scape Event . small club is supposed .

With: Rian , Nurul Cinoneh , Irwan (bear-bear) , sasha , era , amir and other chickaro .

drop at scape at about 8plus , walked a bit to scape . hahahha . very excited .

so many frends of mine . never i knew that i'll see them . i even met FAFA ! hahah .

my aquintance , Penjab and many other boy frends .

all my nepal frends . but sadly , riya wasnt there with us . DAMN ! i miss her !!

shhhh ... entered scape park . it was boring b4 12 .. after 12 , all monkey starts to shake shake shake and shake

i saw 211009 . fcuk . terkejot aku siol . haishhh .. if only .. wakakakak . NEVER !?

that kental boy . hahaha . sorry , i lagi happening .

thanks to [insert name] for making the VERY VERY VERY BIG EFFORT to mit me . in the end ZERO .

hahhahahah . takpe uhh . dah biase pon . asked to call , i did and then didnt pick up the fon .

dont pretend lahh anyway . have fun :)

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2010-12-31T14:52:00.000+08:00

OI POCOT !?

STEP MAINTAIN -.-

hahahaha ! klakar ehkk nie gambar . hahaha . im that kind . hahaha . when i accidentally fell , i step steady . hahaha . ok mepek uhh k .

ouhh , just wanna celebrate today countdown and u know wat !?

TODAY IS MY LAST DAY OF WORKING !!

YAHOOOOOO !

ouhh , hahah .. if i did any mistake , i'll keep quiet but at the same time , i do some amenmands ..

Resolution is up

2010-12-28T01:24:00.000+08:00

Do u know that gerl ? the gerl next door . the one always like to knock out the door . like every weekends to somewhere unplanned . hahah . i missed her . That's Lyrah Senorita OLDIES picto . she can walk super long distance like from orchard till dhoby ghaut or somewhere . hahahah . just window shopping will do . sometimes food is the best . all my SAYANG SAYANG , DARLING DARLING knows the best . I lve hunting for food . i dont care wherever i may be . ON CUTTER ? ON FLIGHT ? anywhere . hahah . i envy u know , Twinnie's hair grow faster than mine . because at ferst , my tangan gatalkan , p cutcutuct . PHEWWW .. hahaha . nehmind . wait next yr my length will stretch longer:) . so ... i have made up my mind that Lyrah Senorita wont exist until im done with my education . once im done with studies , i'll be a bit wild . COZ next yr dah 16 :D when school reopens , i MUST MUST cope with studies well . i must not try , but i will promise myself that i'll make it for the best that i can be . i must stop playing around . Stop eating junks .. I will never forget to keep myself healthy . i will keep myself low profile . at all times ~
I wanna thanked Twin MeLiza♥ for keeping my old fotos that i nvr kept in my memorie card or somewhere . i wanna also thank my Bestfriend ah'b Fofrok♥ for making my day a better one .

cold nostalgia

2010-12-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

its was a cold nostalgia .

outside without u . when the breeze flew me away .

with a lil' dizzy on my head . munching my 2bucks cheeseburger at orchard central .

that night , after work , bby text me ..

he was very sweett :) he told me that he misses me and hoping to mit me again .

even after he slept over my crib the day b4 .

so decided to mit him at bedok inter .

, proceed to Lagoon . bby forced me to buy satay .

coz i was craving for that . the weather was a lil' unkind .

it was raining . and we had to ta pao food .

walked all the way from EAST COAST to BEDOK SOUTH .

where he stays and sent his mom the rojak .

after that flagged cab to home . bby was at my crib again till 3am i think .

Hey , dont think differently .. Tisha and abg man was at home .

Mami and baba , i think go dangdut for Christmas .

the last hug i got from bby . TIGHT one !

Muarksz , muarks .

i pity bby for felling on running nose .

hahaha . Cian die .still missing him .

When he said that if there's chance , he always wanted to be with me .

I was melting from my cold !!

i realised that we are really on track .

Love , not Lust :)

Bear-bear

2010-12-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

Very indulging :) very caring . but sometimes very rude -.- hate it yaa . this afternoon , i hang up the fon b4 he ends his pekpokpekpok .. hahah Sott je .. but yea . WATEVER LAH IRWAN ehkk . brrrrr .. Rotting at home . today christmas , very unsatisfying horr . thanks DAD ! hahaha .. i cared so much him . Cared too much that i didnt even wrap his present . haha . sorry dad :( was busy calling . Hey , but i did my effort to buy just a piece of wrapping paper . hahahahaha ! but i unwrap my present . okok . crapssss .. Bby currenty at my crib . just watching tv with the whole family . not whole , quarter uhh i think . only baba , mami and tisha at home . ok , today really sickening uhh . ppl going town to celebrate the joyous occassion , but thanks to Ayah :) ILOVEU !ILOVE bby too :) weii , today meals was awesome yea . Afternoon meals was just pathetic wax apples and watermelons . ok , currently feeling sp NEUTRAL .. really really ..

From Twin to Twin

2010-12-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

MeLizah .. When Fun becomes Serious issue .

well .. i must say .. its good when u realised ur mistakes . but one thing when u realised it , do make some changes lahh . no use right when u kept saying it and kept repeating it . i never wanted to control the ppl i loved most . the ppl i treasure . it'll sound demanding yea . Sorry , im not that type . for me , u have the choice to make ur own decision . whether u think that friend of urs is worth it or wothless . Thats all . This is life yea . Sometimes we never realised wat kind of little mistakes that we made becomes a bunch of nasty habits u see . Stop procastinate ur deeds . start doing it . Move on . For urself , ur own good . Friends ? u can get it anywhere . but true friends will only be found in a single row . sometimes it;s best when u become self centred person , selfish , but in an healthy way . Friendship is only one part of our life , but heart and being urself is the best thing that u can be . The ppl whom loved u sincerely will accpet the way u're .